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Supposing Billy hadn't told hih? She would never know that She couldn't say to Billy: "Did you tell John I was going back with you? Because; if you didn't--" She would have to leave that as it was, not quite certain And she couldn't be quite certain whether the boy had been dead or alive AndNo She couldn't get over it, John's cowardice It had destroyed the unique, beautiful happiness she had had with hie, didn't count She could ree Corfield, the e was the least thing you could have That only meant that, whatever else you hadn't, you must have that It was a sort of trust You were trusted not to betray defenceless things A coas a person who betrayed defenceless things George had said that the world's adoration of courage was the world's cowardice, its fear of betrayal That was a question for cowards to settle aation not to betray defenceless things reranted; they didn't talk about it They didn't talk about it because it was so deep and sacred, like honour and like love; so that, when John had talked about it she had always felt that he was her lover, saying the things that other s he couldn't have said to any other woman

It was inconceivable that he--It couldn't have happened As he had said of the defeat of Belgium, it was so bad that it couldn't happen Odd, that the other day she had accepted at once a thing she didn't know for certain, while now she fought fiercely against a thing she knew; and always the , beat her down

She had to make up her mind on what terms she would live with it and whether she would live with it at all Supposing it happened again? Supposing you had always to go in fear of its happening? Itthat attacked you like an illness, or like drink, in fits, with long, calm intervals between She wondered what it would feel like to be subject to attacks Perhaps you would recover; you would be on the look-out, and when you felt another fit coht it down And the first ti It wouldn't be fair to give him up because of the first time