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"Your faithful and loving friend, "PAUL"

This letter I addressed and starimace which I palmed off on myself (but not on Adolphus) as a cheerful smile, I went out and dropped it into the post-box; after which I further deludedmyself that the incident was now absolutely closed

But, despite this comfortable assurance, I was, in the days that followed, an exceedinglyman It is all very well to write down troubles of this kind as trivial and senti of the kind When a man of an essentially serious nature has found the one wohest ideals of womanhood, who is, in fact, a woive of love and worship, the sudden wreck of all his hopes is no sn ht-have-been hauntedabstractedly about the streets, always trying to banish thought and never for an instant succeeding A great unrest was uponhis arrival at Madeira, hoh of relief I had no plans for the future, but I longed to be rid of the, now irksoo when and how I pleased

One evening, as I sat consu with little appetite my solitary supper, there fell on me a sudden sense of loneliness The desire that I had hitherto felt to be alone withfor human companionship That, indeed, which I craved for most was forbidden, and I must abide by my lady's wishes; but there were my friends in the Temple It was more than a week since I had seen the of that unhappiest day ofwhat had beco filled 's Bench Walk

As I approached the entry of No 5A in the gathering darkness I , encu-lantern, and a book

"Why, Berkeley!" he exclai what had beco time since I looked you up," I admitted