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I tense up but nod I try my best to appear neutral, like our new topic of discussion doesn’t bother me “What do you want to know?”

My shrink watches aze steady “It still bothers you to hear her name”

“It doesn’t,” I lie I tryI both dread and savor hearing Fable’s name I want to see her I need to see her

I can’t iven up on ave up on her first, didn’t I?

More like you gave up on yourself

“You don’t have to lie to me, Drew It’s okay if it’s still difficult” Dr Sheila Harris pauses, tapping her index finger against her chin “Have you considered trying to see her?”

I shake my head I consider it every day, every minute of my life, but my considerations are useless “She hates me”

“You don’t know that”

“I know I’d hate me for what I did if I were her I shut down and shut her out, like I always do She begged ain not to do it That she’d be there for me no matter what” Yet I left her With only a stupid note that took e that ht away

But she’s not nored her And now…

I’ve lost her

“So why did you shut her out? You’ve never told h questions, but that’s her job I still hate answering them “It’s the only way I kno to cope,” I admit The truth slaps me in the face on a daily basis I always run

It’s so ht Dr Harris out myself No one else pushed me to do it After we came back from Carmel, after I ditched Fable and left her that bullshit note, I withdrew into arades Winter break came and I ran away I literally ran away to some crazy cabin in the middle of the woods I rented from some nice old couple in Lake Tahoe