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We sit next to each other at the round table surrounded by a crush of people, the noise fro to each other throughout the entire er I know it’s stupid, but she ht

It’s like I can’t find words What can I say to follow up that kiss in the backseat of my dad’s car? I don’t want to cheapen thein it still Thinking like a chick, relieving the ain in my mind

How she responded to me, the little sounds of pleasure she made in the back of her throat The feel of her warainst mine, her hands in my hair I can’t remember the last time I was kissed like that Have I ever been kissed like that? Hell, I really don’t think so

The realization stops me cold

We may not speak, but I’, her sweet scent that makes my mouth water The heat of her skin, the way her bare shoulder brushes against lass of water I wonder if she’s touching me on purpose

Out of the corner of lass, the delicate line of her throat and its movement as she ss The i I clenchlike an idiot

Doesn’t work I can’t stop thinking about her How she felt in my ar think like this ever I stuffed all useless eo and I’ve refused to let it back out It’s pointless I’etting through life one day at a tiirl…she doesn’t feel pointless She’s real and she’s beautiful and she fits perfectly when she’s in erous to think like this I don’tto her I’m a means to an end A job with a paycheck I did this toback the beer I got from the bar earlier It’s er, I’ another soon I’one straight to hell and I have no idea how to stop this train wreck called my emotions I’m not even sure if I want to stop this

That’s the stupidest thing of all Howwith her, ould I want to stop?

You’ve done other things that felt real good, but you knew you should stop

I hate that voice inside my head It reminds ood person and I know it I don’t need the constant reminders

“Drew, there you are!” Da behind her All girls I went to school with, and all of them perfectly dressed and done up so they look like identical plastic Barbie dolls It’s hard to tell the all over for you You reht?”

“Yeah Hey” I flickand they all siling as they watchand I wish they’d leave