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"Stop singing that fking song!" he yells with rage and kicks one of et out of here"

"I can’t," she says through hysterical sobs "What if so her like a rag doll "I already checked the house"

She glances around my toy room and I swear her eyes land on oing to tell? "Lean into me Lean into me Take Help me I need to understand Help me I can’t do this without you" Tears flood her eyes over and over again and I start to cry to as he starts s my head as I wait for the monsters to find me Hurt me Because that’s what monsters do

I wake up in a panic, like I always do, s distorted as that song echoes in her head I gasp, clutchingloudly as I search the dark roo familiar, and finally it lands onhis eyes as he places a hand on my back He’s become so used to this it doesn’t even faze hias I clutch the sheet tomy heart rate to settle I have to work not to do it the way I’er I know that the only reason I’ is because he’s here touchingit now

After I settle down, he pulls his shirt overhis arms around me "I wish you’d tell ainstabout stuff doesn’t help," I whisper with my hands on his chest "And trust me, you don’t want to hear about it"

He coh my hair and I feel his neck ht upthat stuff… Well it still gets to reat inconvenience" There’s forced hu to say, but I can’t co I could s are always easy for s about his, like the ones I’ve been holding inside ht," I say and his hand he catches his breath "You saw the killers"

I nod, looking down at the foot of the bed "I did, but at the sauess it was more like I heard the else insideme "They didn’t knoas in the room, so they didn’t even bother to be quiet"

"Did you tell the police this?" he asks

"I told the police everything; what I could re… I even described the sound of her stupid voice… the way it sounded when she sang that ?" he asks "Really?"

"Yeah, it had so a deep breath " ‘Lean into me Lean into me Take Help me I need to understand Help me I can’t do this without you…’ " I trail off "It’s what I hear every night in my drea by the only noise in our roo in what I said, but then I realize how stiff he’s gotten and how it doesn’t even sound like he’s breathing

I peer up at hi if it was a mistake to tell him "Luke, are you okay?"

"What the hell did you just say?" he whispers

I definitely shouldn’t have told hi" I push up fro to decide whether I should bail out before he throwsit is because I’ve never been able to find it anywhere"

The length of his silence seerow more panicked

"That’s because she made it up" His voice cracks and then he shoves ets up and stor what he said and what he could possibly ? Does he know the person who… Oh my God… I jump up and chase after him as he slams the bathroo my fist on the door "What do you mean ‘she ainst the door over and over again until it’s swollen and throbbing "God daain I need to know… I need to know that I heard you right"

He doesn’t answer and his silence is enough to know the painful, blazing, slicing, ugly truth I sink to the floor as things start crashing around on the other side of the door Glass Walls My heart I wait for the truth to be revealed toit’s not what I’ That Luke doesn’t know the person as there that nightBut deep down I know I’ the horrible truth and the emptiness that lies ahead of ainst the wall, watching it fall apart, cruainst the tile floor, turn into a pile of dust Then once the hole is big enough, I crash my fist into the mirror Glass shatters My skin splits apart I bleed all over the floor, drops of blood staining the tile along with the broken frag It isn’t real I just want a fking decent life withoutme A hot burst of heat burns the inside of me and I cranestill intact, which happens to be the bathtub The tile stays intact, but h I need more I don’t want to feel like this I can’t… I can’t accept it… Tears start to slip out ofweak and pathetic loser, the kid who used to do everything he was told I’ to lose Violet

I letleft to do but lass cutting the botto against the door and she falls onto the bathroo her head as she lies there in theup at me with dry eyes