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"I just don’t have good experiences with itI like to go unnoticed" I wasn’t telling him anymore My past needed to stay in the past This was liness and pain from my past into the life I had now

"Proble hard not to notice," Krit said with a saze that made me think he didn’the liked what he saw

"I try to blend in," I replied, not sure if I washim or not I wanted to believe he meant that as a compliment, but how could he?

"That’s a shame," he said, then reached for another piece of pizza

I decided to change the subject and asked hiuitar Our conversation beca his voice and listening to hih

What I didn’t expect was that Krit would show up every evening like this and eat with me for the next teeks But he did And I liked it No, I didn’t just like itI planneda habit That was all Nothing more I was not addicted to her I wasn’t Just a nice little distraction Seeing Blythe in the evenings before I left for s was a way to have aelse

Last night she had actually rolled her eyes at one of my jokes and thrown her napkin at th I had to stay in rab her face and taste those full lips She wasn’t nervous with me anymore She smiled at me and let me in when I knocked on her door

Soo to find myself before I went out and entertained everyone She didn’t hang onIt was easy with Blythe

Or at least I kept telling ed the truth, I would panic So instead I was going to believe this was all I wanted frohday

"Hey," she said with that smile from heaven as she stepped back and let ot the pad Thai you like," I said, holding up the bag fro hernoises as she ate it the last tiain

Her eyes lit up, and she clapped her hands and bounced on her feet like a little girl Women who looked like Blythe were not supposed to be so daet excited over food made me want to feed her three meals a day

"I made sweet tea just like you showed ht," she said as she hurried to the kitchen

Two nights ago she had said she loved sweet tea, but she didn’t kno to ht her how You would have thought I was brilliant by the way she watcheda science experi about Blythe: she made me feel important Needed Like I was a part of her life that she relied on

That felt fking good Too good

But I was not addicted I didn’t care what Green said Blythe was not an addiction I hated that he had started accusingdown on Blythe’s kitchen table and followed her to the bar where she was filling up a glass of ice with tea froht her when I taught her how toin her eyes

If this tasted like shit, I wasn’t going to be able to tell her Not with her looking like that Hurting Blythe was so I was incapable of I would lie to make her srilled cheese and burned it She had seeht, so I sed every last bite like it was the best thing I had ever put in lass and took a drink The sweet taste was just right She had nailed it No bitterness in the tea--the perfect blend of ice and sugar Grinning, I set the glass down and s perfect"

"Really?" she asked, her eyes shining brightly

It was times like this all I wanted to do was scoop her up and kiss her until ere both stripping off each other’s clothes Fuck Shit I was not going to think about that again I had to stop thinking about her naked

She was the kind of girl you had a relationship with Not the kind you fked because you couldn’t stop lusting over her She was also beco her would ruin that This thing we had--I couldn’t ruin it I had never had this before, and it was too io eat," I told her as I turned away froet plates out of the cabinet

"You want a fork?" I asked her, already knowing the answer She had attempted to eat the pad Thai with chopsticks last tihed and nodded

I grabbed us both a fork and headed to the table to fix our plates This hat I wasn’t willing to lose I had never had a place where I felt like I belonged This wasn’t the kind of friendship I was used to, and I loved it I woke up everyto dinner and ould talk about Things would happen during the day, and the first person who I wanted to tell was Blythe In the short month since she had moved in, she had made herself the most important person inattheI wasn’t that guy She needed to see the realdinner with her and talking about our days She was looking atatmore

I set the fork down and stared at the table I had to remind her She had to remember who I was I was only worthy of her friendship She had to remember ould always be just friends This need I had for her co beautiful eyes were so expressive and trusting

Fuck Fuck Shit!