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With Nate (that’s his name), there’s no note Yeah, he said I was hot Or, he sort of said I was hot He actually said the way I wear my shoes is hot, and I’ out without with her too, but she was there for his brother Long story Anyhow, I could have gone, too I was the one he invited, but then I just froze

I’et unstuck I know you won’t answer I know you don’t have an answer to give ht be full of shit Because I don’t feel any better Like, at all

Love,

Rowe

What I need to do is be more like my friend Betsy Betsy wouldn’t think--she would just act Maybe that’s the new mantra I need to follow: "What would Betsy do?"

I knohat she would do right now She would ht in just like she belonged there Be like Betsy Be like Betsy I tip hit out into waves

Be like Betsy Be like Betsy I stuff rab my wallet and keys, and shove them into my back pockets after I pull my door closed behind me The hallway is quiet, because it’s still painfully early I’ up on someone All I can hear is the thu ainst the wall next to Nate’s door, and for minutes I just listen The less I hear, theto pass out or choose to be strong

More than a few ti at the elevator and walking back Finally, on my last trip, I shutcarefully into his room, which looks like a smaller version of htly cracked to letat But then the blonde curls of Paige’s hair register withher body into the blankets even h to cover her underwear Panties that are nothing like a single pair inat all

"Hey," someone whispers, and I just back to the door a little "Hey, it’s Ty Rowe? That you?"

Ty is lifting his chest up fronize Cass is cradled next to hiod, I’m sorry I was just…they didn’t co my knee with the door when I pull it open God, could I be any louder?

"If you’re looking for Nate, he had workouts thisback down and ht I’ in

"Okay Thanks," I say, with no intention of doing anything with that infore and where she slept last night

"Oh, and hey When you see him, make sure you ask him when his birthday is," Ty says, and within an instant, I swear he’s sleeping again

I shut the door behind o to the elevator and push the button for the first floor What would Betsy do? Be like Betsy

It’s getting easier to leave the building onfor ht now, I’achievement in my own recovery But really, it’s just an act of bitter jealousy--and so will be the e fit I throw in front of Nate after his practice, when I rip hie for the night

Unless…unless it’s not just for the night? Maybe they hit it off? Maybe he decided he likes her after he got to know her And s

As much as the doubt is there now, I can’t convince e as a couple Not that I want to be a couple with Nate I just don’t want anyone else to be I think I ain

The ball fields are easy to find When I cliainst the solid corner in the back, I’o The way the ball sounds when it’s struck by the bat--I think it’s a similar effect some people have ind chiloves catching balls, of boys shouting plays, rando It’s every practice my dad ever held It’s every tryout I went to with hi late to watch his practices after tennis would end