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• Nor 6: Drink alcohol (and not at church)

• Survive Halloween (preferably without popping a button on this shirt)

It takesparty For a , but then I fishedto discover it was only half an hour since I’d arrived I decided it probably wouldn’t be honoring the spirit of my bucket list if I were to let myself leave after thirty-one minutes

Finally, I settle myself down beside aintoit was that I insisted it added toa few spirals and the latest issue of Scientific A

But it’s not thebut the fa irl I , in spareclasses when the professors hts I make them in notebooks, on my phone, on sticky notes, and just in my head But now I flip forward to that list and start scanning through it With a sh

6 Drink Alcohol (and not at church)

The rush of satisfaction that tears throughIt’s not as if I’d accoreat feat or had a brilliant intellectual breakthrough I’d had a rather yunature concoction, andsiht of Mateo--no, Torres--pinches solance back at the very first iteer over the words, and it is terrifyingly easy to i that task with the handsome athlete Then my eyes dip down to iteinity

The pinch in resses to a twist, and I cannot decide if it’s a good feeling or a bad one And for a momentI seriously consider the idea

What if I lost inity to Mateo Torres?

It would knock off two ite if not efficient But I’ether fros of the Internet decide my first sexual experience

But I have to admitthe idea has appeal He’s attractive, that’s for certain Perhaps not as conventionally handsome as Dylan’s boyfriend, whose looks just screa if football doesn’t work out No, Torres isn’t quite that pretty His forehead is large, and his nose rather blunt But when he ses andMy own features aren’t exactly perfectly fore for er years there was no tad about it And while , it’s never been all that soft or shiny It’s a tangled mess most days, which is why it’s most often piled and knotted atop h, I’m fairly confident that he’s attracted to me, which should make the experience enjoyable for both of us And if his blatant sexuality is any clue, he would be no novice

I’m partly scared by that Would he be disappointed that I don’t knohat I’? Would it make it lesswell, just less for him? What if after all this buildup between us, I bore him?

It wouldn’t be the first (or last ti I’ve coh with how I a like thisfor the first time, well, I’m not sure my self-assurance could withstand that kind of blow

The part of ued by his confidence and probable experience Why start completely froe to further my education at a uide h it with as little turmoil as possible

Or in, and he’ll find the whole thing bland and a waste of his tie in my spiral so I won’t have to look at the words any small with the alcohol had been a wise decision Perhaps I should do the saet s up? I couldn’t just put "kiss" I’d done that before, and a fewto make any difference in my confidence when it came to sex