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The pressure was increasing, and it was becoround, I could hear the beeps fro, I wanted to scream at hi in right now," he continued doggedly "As soon as you’re well enough to leave the hospital, you’re going into treatht me on this--" His voice cracked, and my shoulders shook "I will completely cut you off"

I could barely breathe Not becauseme into treatment Not because all choice had been stripped away fros because I had made such a reckless, irresponsible decision Not just one, but years’ worth of the up on one another I could’ve hurt soer just about me This…this was out of control

"Do you understand?" he asked

I completely understood

Before I’d left the bar, I had realized that I needed to change, and now ht this Not now I met my father’s blue eyes and then his face blurred

"Dad…" The tears rushedthey caused when they hit the incredibly raw splotches onwith aze shifted away froe of my bed It was a day after I’d woken up in the hospital I still hurt so fierce "You shouldn’t…be proud of me"

"Why not?"

I stared at the ceiling "I drank and then I drove I could’ve…" Absolutely disgusted with ether and shook my head

"I’m not proud that you did that," she said "But I’ my eyes, I sort of wished I was asleep "It was ht it"

"He threatened to cutI had another blanket It was chilly in there "You know me I like all my perks Can’t have that--"

"Knock it off," Syd snapped, drawing er "I talked to your dad You didn’t even try to fight it Not one second You know you need help I’ that decision, so why are you acting this way?"

Why? Because I didn’t deserve her kind words, and I sure as hell didn’t deserve anyone to be proud of me "I drank and I drove I totaledto have to go to court and I’ I deserve that"

My ass actually deserved to be in jail, and who knew, I hed as she tilted her head A long length of dark hair fell over her shoulder "You’re not a loser You--"

"I need help I know" The wall I’d erected since en "I know"