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My hands tightened on his shoulders, the blunt tips ofa cannonball to my senses Every part of me was scattered by the pure pleasure of a kiss, and I’d…I’d never been kissed like this before Like I was so everything to hold hi for more, and I could feel the restraint in the taut lines of his body, in the way his body trembled and his hand clenched my hip
When he lifted his nized ca chuckle was deep, husky, and when he rested his forehead against mine, I blinkedthat caain, and I could feel it ruh my body "Only you would ask what a kiss is for" He slid his hand up toa wake of shivers in his path "You’re worth a ive yourself credit for"
All I could do was stare
His eyes were a brilliant blue, the shade of the sky above us "And I want to punch ht in your head" He paused "Well, not right now I think I’d do pere if I did that at this second"
I blinked slowly as my hand slipped down to his chest Undernearly as fast as mine "You didn’t…" I sed hard "You didn’t put that thought in my head"
He cocked his head to the side A moment passed between us "Was it there before?"
The truth of what I’d just adainst his chest, relief floodedbefore our et super-friendly with one another I needed that space in that s were all over the place, swirling together and for a cyclone of messy emotions that whipped away the war I’d kept my mouth shut I was sure "emotionally unstable" was already added to the list of traits Tanner probably strung together whenever he thought of me, but I really didn’t need to add to it Actually, he seehly of me My heart did a little flip, but ood opinion ofIt hadn’t before, so ould now be any different?
My lips still tingled fro pain in my chest that felt so very real It stole my breath and twisted up my insides Tanner wasn’t the person who made me feel like…like I wasn’t worth it Yeah, he’d said soht--thatevery thought in acidic bitterness To be honest, that…that had always been in irl There was no real reason other thanthe reason I hadn’t been bullied as a child My heart had never really been broken Sure, it had been wounded but never shattered My father had been a drunk, but I’d grown up in a loving family with all the s than ht
The oing to want anything to do with me And I needed to be so very careful with that, because despite what’d happened when I’d been a freshuy orth it, and losing someone like him would surely smash my heart to smithereens
"Andy," Tanner said as he placed his hand onin a shallow breath, I looked at hiain I really did And I wanted him to pull me into his arms I really wanted that, but that’s not what I did I sorted through all the e inside me and I mentally recoiled from the spark of hope and anticipation that blosso I always latched onto, the one eer
It was the wrong thing I knew that and I also knew the kind of sadness I felt, the restlessness that seemed to invade my very core, it was more destructive than any risk I could take, but I couldn’t…couldn’t do this "I don’t want to talk to you" As his eyes widened with surprise, I swung e and stood "And I prefer to pretend that nothing happened between us"
Tanner drew back like I’d kicked him in the face, and I didn’t feel a moment of satisfaction There was only a riptide of frustration and bitter self-loathing that chewed through azes met, and the stark disbelief in his stare was hard to acknowledge, but even harder to look upon was the twinge of hurt I saw lurking in there Guilt flooded my systeers brushing over the handle when his voice stopped me
"Don’t walk away fro to noredher walk away after what’d just happened No fucking way
My heart pounded like a steel dru All from a kiss--a simple kiss Never had a kiss made me feel like that, and I’d be damned if she stomped all over it with absolutely no explanation