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Even though I wasn’t in love with Will, I’ll never forget the way the barn sht, how nervous he looked as he tore open the condoht I was the irl in school

Just like Mike will never forget how beautiful Danica looked in that hotel rooled with the ties of her dress, how it felt to be inside her--and he loved her, so the memory will mean so much more to him Fifty years from now, he’ll still carry it with him

They were each other’s first loves, first ti like an intruder as I fall asleep that night, i the way he loved her

"Did you know Mike and Danica lost their virginities to each other?" I ask Rowan and Dee on Wednesday afternoon at the ca not to think about itand then I’ve thought about it, and thought about it, and thought about it

"Ew," Dee says, her face scrunched with disgust She sets her coffee down and pushes it all the way to the other side of the table

"How do you know?" Rowan asks, and when I don’t answer, Dee looks back and forth between us before pinning her eyes on rowls

"Hailey, what did I tell you about listening to her? That girl is poison Poison If you start buying into her lies--"

"She wasn’t lying though," I interrupt in defense of my cousin, and the corners of Dee’s mouth turn down Eventually, Rowan shakes her head

"It doesn’tthe truth, Hailey You know she’s just telling you this stuff to get under your skin"

I stare down atwithfriends, like ere just two rooh and her bright eyes, and I grip the theret her," I say, and when I look up at Rowan, her blue-jean eyes are filled with sympathy

"Of course he won’t She was his first love"

"Do you knohat I re her coffeeback to her side of the table "I remerabs a sugar packet fro it violently "It was like he didn’t realize that water is required to go doaterslide The fucker just dove right in I know your first tiree vagina burn"