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I glared at hiht?"

That was the sad part I’d done coke before, and it hadn’t made me act half as crazy as er ement"

"I’ll be happy to put you up in a rehab facility for substance abuse, if that is an issue, as well"

"It’s not," I bit out, done with the conversation

"Okay, then I’ve posted your bail, as well, so you are free to go right after we discuss one h it was a prank I knew for a fact that you couldn’t do that to a guy, and then just walk out of jail that night "Are you shitting me?"

"Not at all I’ll add it to your tab I just wanted to talk to you about your ht of hand I’ unofficially, you understand, because I have my old act under contract for two more years But when his contract is up, he’s out He just doesn’t have his heart in it anymore Sometime between now and then, I’d like to see so different, so keep that in mind as you prepare"

I nodded, totally stunned that, after all the tie was happening, and it was all because of Danika

"Okay, that is all," he said, rising from his chair "I’ll send soet you out of here"

I smiled at him, a purely ornery smile, because, in a purely ornery mood, I’d stolen one of the cops handcuff keys

I unlocked myself with a feift, quiet motions This was the cheapest kind of trick, the kind where you weren’t even doing a trick, you were just perfor the unexpected, but I was in a mood, and I didn’t really care that it was cheap

I dropped avefroain

"How did you do that?" he asked, looking like he’d gotten a genuine kick out of it That was good, because if he got a kick out ofhiic," I told hihed

I called Danika for five days, over and over, without a response I finally resorted to leaving , then sappy, then angry again, and finally, flat out desperate

I told her I loved her, which I probably shouldn’t have said for the first tie, but I was desperate I called her a coward, then cursed her, then begged her

I tried to go to the house once, but she only sent Jerry out to tell me that they would call the police if I didn’t leave

After that, I holed up in my apartment for days, and went into full on self-destructto myself that this could possibly be it for us

What if she never talks to ain? I tortured myself with that question I didn’t knohat I’d do I was filled with regrets I hadn’t opened up to her as much as I should have, and she’d couts about everything, even if I did hate to talk about the crap she wantedher everything about me in voicemails that she’d probably never even listen to I was that desperate

"I’, but I’ll dohere, and in return I’d just like to hear fro"

I took a deep breath, trying to figure out where to start "Fuck Maybe I should be texting you this, or e, but bear with ht that so like that could serve two people equally I saw that from the way my mom ith one worthless boyfriend after another She’d bend over backwards for them, and all they had to do was feed her bullshit lines and act halfway decent souess that’s why I started to think they were kind of a scam This belief was reinforced for me, over and over, as I watched her let men walk all over her for the sake of the ‘relationship’"

"Nat was just sort of the icing on the cynical cake We were just kids e got together, and weI did ever made her happy, and she had all of this emotional blackmail crap she tried to pull on , and stupid, and I wanted so badly to be the opposite of h thick and thin, that I illing to put up with a lot, even being miserable, to prove that I was better than hie ti for the beep, and then continued right where I’d left off

"Nat guiltedI couldn’t afford She was relentless about it, said all of her happiness was tied up in it, and if I didn’t make her happy, well, that was my fault, since her happiness was et her a way too expensive ring She told me it embarrassed her, because the dia, so I had no idea what she meant, but that was how the relationship went There were ood, s than communications It exhaustedaround"

It tiht up again

"Nat pulled all kinds of jealous tantru, when I wasn’t I think that’s one of the reasons why it was so hard for ain I broke it off, and swore off relationships altogether, because she had taught ood at the that was, how iven her, even when I’d been over her for years I’h start, and part of it was because of baggage that didn’t deserve the weight I’d given it"