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"I need you, Danika I’ve never needed anything like I need this" Each as drawn out and punctuated with a rough stroke "I’ll never get enough of you Never"

It wasn’t his usual dirty talk, and his words fed so s, craved every little sign that he ht be anywhere near as obsessed with me as I ith him

His handssoftly at that aching flesh while pounding hard into the core of me My nipples were puckered hard, and he pinched and then pulled them taut It ached in a way that e, engorged length intopace that rip the door handle for dear life

"Is it too much?" he rasped into my ear

It was It was some so full that I felt like I couldn’t take it for another second, but I’d never tell hi of me

The sensations were so intense that I wasn’t sure if I was about to come or scream my head off

Turns out, I did both

CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT

Three days later, we found ourselves at a house party for so house, and pure chaos, and the second we stepped in the door I wondered why I’d let myself be talked into it I was tired I hadn’t had a decent night of sleep in I didn’t even kno long, and house parties had never been my favorite It always just tended to be the stoner way to party, since you had to hide that stuff in clubs and bars

I could sot in the door, and so coke off a table in a rooht of the entrance, fully visible from the front door

I was so over it

All of that was bad enough, but about tenfor Jared or Frankie or Cory or Kenny, I spotted my ex Not Daryl the Dickhead The other one Patrick The one that hadn’t been a cootten too heavy into drugs for h now that I’d found what I’d found with Tristan, and felt this crazy, out of control thing in my chest every second of the day, I had to admit that I hadn’t fallen out of love, I’d just never fallen in

I had a strange epiphany as I stared at Patrick’s profile I’d called it love, and looked for love, because that’s what I’d wanted, but love was not a thing you could force yourself to feel, or,you could keep yourself froirl with control issues

I was jolted out of hts as Tristan threw an ar me close

"What’s up, sweetheart? You look like you just saw a ghost"

I gri Patrick and finding out that he was an ex, if at all possible I just had a feeling that Tristan wouldn’t take thewas backed up by experience…For a forly jealous

"Nothing like that," I finally answered "I’ coke on the way in was a bit too hardcore forJared knows some crazy people, and Frankie knows everybody in town"

I started toto the backyard, when I saw Patrick spot me out of the corner of an tomy best to paint a very clear picture for Patrick I didn’t look his way again, and only hoped he’d gotten the hint

We found Frankie and Jared out by the pool

"Where are the rest of the guys?" Tristan asked the

"Hell if I know," Jared said, sounding put out about it "They were supposed to be here hours ago So were you, for that matter"

Tristan whipped out his phone "Letaround constantly, afraid that Patrick would follow us out He didn’t, not right away, but within fivethe crowd I knew, just knew, that he was looking forwith Patrick It was almost like I’d just woken up one day and seen the situation for what it was; a relationship between teenagers who should have only ever been friends What hadn’t been sudden wasthat you didn’t have to keep having sex with someone if you didn’t want to had been an ih of course I’d had to relearn it with Daryl The fact that Patrick had started doing soh I knew better than anyone that with my co-dependent streak, especially back then, I would never have left him for that alone, if I’d felt for him even a tenth of what I felt for Tristan now I liked to think I’d gotten past sos, but if push came to shove, I couldn’t say with any certainty that I’d ever leave Tristan willingly

Tristan still had his phone to his ear, and I squeezed his aret his attention

When he looked at me, I pointed at the house

"Bathroom," I told him, and took off I assuet that over with, and avert any drama with Tristan

I rabbed my elbow from behind I knew instantly that it wasn’t Tristan The hand wasn’t big enough

I turned and looked into Patrick’s steady gaze "Hey," I said, giving hi?"