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"Do it," he said with a new trace of steel in his voice I closedas I obeyed him I wanted answers, but I couldn’t lie to myself I wanted this just astowards the bed and using the restraints hidden at each corner of the bed to secure me swiftly As he stared at my restrained body, soht before my eyes
He loo tiet upset Ask me whatever you need to I’ll answer all of your questions, and you know I’ll be honest, but you don’t get to run away if you don’t like the answers"
I was looking directly at hi with rapid breaths out of the corner of my eye If his tactic had been to distract me from the questions that troubled me, he’d succeeded beautifully Now that I was naked and bound, nothing seemed as important as what he could do to me, not even those answers
Ireat effort
"Was Jolene lying, Ja the answer
He ran a restless hand through his dark golden hair, an to pace, shrugging out of his tuxedo jacket and tossing it onto a chair I was ready to screa She wasBut we didn’t see each other ‘often’ after that We enerally when I was between subs I know this doesn’t make me look any better, but it was only ever physical between Jolene and I I know she thinks she’s in love with me, so it was badly done of me to keep in touch, but it was a strictly sexual relationship It’s an awful thing to say, but I don’t even like her"
I flinched every tis like ‘physical’ and ‘sexual’, horribly vivid iether flashing through my mind I turnedto composeand feeling were two very different things "Was she the woht before Iand fluid rant, but I didn’t look at hi pause "I always used a condo you"
I counted to ten inat some vulnerable part of me It wasn’t the condom, but rather the act that ith it, and the horrible wo a vivid and painful picture in ether
My next question embarrassed me for soan to speak "Jolene said a few things about joining you and your other subs…"
I felt hiripped ht I could still feel his intensity through the contact "She joined round, maybe a handful of times None of this matters, Bianca I know it troubles you, but it really is insignificant How I feel about you is what’s i you loveto to pull my wrist away from the hot contact of his hand
I heard him suck in a breath, but kept my eyes stubbornly closed "That’s a lie I’ve done that with a few subs, but only the subs I knew favored that sort of thing, but that’s never been about my preferences I suspect that Jolene herself may prefer that"
"Jolene said you didn’t stay omen unless they would do that for you"
His palh It wasn’t a slap, exactly, but it wasn’t a soft touch either "This is ridiculous I wouldn’t ask that of you I would be distraught if you even suggested it You aren’t just my sub, Bianca This is much more than just a physical relationship I feel utterly possessive of you If someone touched you the way I touch you, male or female, I would lose my mind"
He took a shaky breath before he continued "I want to share amous with you, and my past is in the past I wish there was some way I could prove it to you, once and for all I do have a sordid past, but I’ve never lied to any of the women I’ve been with, and I’ve never pros I probetter with every word he spoke He was char me out of my doubts, and no part of me wanted him to stop I have it bad, I realized then It orse than I had even realized, and I’d knoas already crazy in love with this inco my questions," I told hi moment that I couldn’t even hear him breathe "You’re not upset?" he asked finally
"A little, but I’ll get over it I get insanely jealous when I think about you with other women, and I was sick orry that you would want s with Jolene that I just can’t do, but I’m not unreasonable" I looked at him as I spoke His face was stricken
He crawled on top of me still fully clothed He moved until ere nose to nose, that awful look still on his face "I would never ask you to do anything like that Moreover, I wouldn’t allow it You promised me exclusivity, and I intend for you to hold up your end of that as staunchly as I’ll hold up mine
Will you still h I’ve done a disreed that I would, even though my doubt was still a thick knot in ain, he was impossible to resist
"You can’t exactly protect me in the women’s restroom, James That’s just silly And you certainly couldn’t predict that they would do that toJolene showed s I really didn’t ever want to see that"