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"Fuck," Jarinned wryly "I told you I was fucked up," I told him

"How did he die?" Ja my belly

I didn’ton our infor mood, because I just answered "He didn’t," I said softly

His eyes went a little wild as they shot from my stomach to my face "But you said-"

"I lied About him, but not my mother She’s dead"

"How did she die? And where is your father?"

"She killed herself" The lie slipped from my lips with no effort or remorse It was an old lie And a necessary one "And I have no idea where he is I ran away from home just after myHe found me, a few tih to reunite us But by then I had Stephan He would always protect ain"

"So you were in foster care? That’s how you ave a swift shake of my head "We had some run-ins with foster care, but no We were homeless runaways Ito rape me, and he beat the pervert to within an inch of his life You can thank Stephan for helping to keep inity intact We were inseparable after that We never even discussed it We just became family"

I saw a fine treertip "

I want to kill somebody," Jaht of theloose I can’t believe that someone like you was made to live on the streets, unprotected"

"I had Stephan," I said si so the horrible tiuy Reift I know he likes cars…" he trailed off

I laughed, and it felt surprisingly carefree "I love hie you there"

"I need you to answer a question for ether? Ah stuff, if it’s too much for you I don’t want to be bad for you"

I traced his lips, choosing my words carefully "I’ve been fascinated by the BDSM stuff since I can remember It embarrassed me, and so I hid it well Obviously, I had no experience with it, but I felt drawn to it, always And the way you e to me My past has shaped me, that’s true of anyone, but I don’t think it’s bad for ood for me to have someone like you, who can help me with this outlet So like my father"

I could see that my words reassured him He leaned down to kiss ainstoff track You owe me a painful revelation A few of them, actually Why do you hate alcohol sothere I just sensed it His reaction to seeing ht I ht drink alcohol, was all just too personal

He ran his hand up ave hily, and foruardian when my parents died He was an older cousin His name was Spencer, and I despised him Supposedly, he was a close friend of ht at first He see me any rules or restrictions I was barely fourteen and he would let uy in the world Until I realized that he was drugging the wine"

A hand went to my throat at his words I heldwith inexplicable certainty that the rest would be bad

"It took me awhile I would just have these blackouts I wouldn’t rens"

"I was sore in places that I shouldn’t have been I had marks on ed At first it was just so in his eyes After a tiht, and I just knew I just knew that he had done things to s that I hadn’t consented to Not that a fourteen year old can consent to any da"

Tears filled my eyes for the first tily It both brokewith me

He noted my tears, and brushed theuess on my part, but I suspected the wine So I pretended to drink it one night, and let him lead me to his roo But by then, I was helpless And then I got to experience the whole disgusting thing without the benefit of drugged wine"

I traced those tiny scars on his wrists, and he let htly when I kissed them, but he didn’t stop ed out as usual almost immediately, but I really don’t think the bastard cared He had convinced hi participant, no led"

"He didn’t let ht of my life I was exhausted and sick down to umption to beat the shit out of him the second I was free"

"He steered clear of ry lover choked hier uess it finally backfired At least that lover wasn’t underage It was a huge family scandal All of my relatives were lazed over as he told ory details, but they cleared as he finished, and seeht away

He leaned down and kissed me when he finished I returned the kiss desperately He pulled back,into my mouth