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"I can’t tell you exactly what I was o into detail It had been an unhappy period inpills, I was seeing shrinks, I went to the gym because I knew no one would like ery I enty-three My h a terrible divorce andsoht were just hours of black space so that night at Industria I had just corapher and had a brief affair with a boy fros I wanted I wanted to be on the cover of azines I wanted to be beautiful I wanted to be rich, I wanted to be faort and Demarchelier and shows, I had done so rief see else and then there hat Bobby wanted and in ourI evolved Bobby came in and sa limited my world was and he h and he ed me and I, in turn, became cheerful He told me that physically I was perfect and I decided then that I would follow hieles and he introduced enius,’ a ot involved and ot to know, Victor, that I was not aware of what Bobby did I hadn’t been told of his plans All I really kneas he wasn’t aat MOCA so called ’The History of the Polka Dot’ when-"
"I went to that"
"-ere standing in a corner he was so soft-spoken and started telling h I had to ask hiht the joint and hand it to her Without sitting up she takes it, inhales, coughs a little
"How did he recruit people? It was only models and famous models He wasn’t interested in anyone else He would use the fact that as a model all you do all day is stand around and do what other people tell you to do He preyed on that and we listened and it was an analogy that s of us and it wasn’t hard to recruit people everyone wanted to be around us everyone wanted to be movie stars and in the end, basically, everyone was a sociopath and all the girls’ hair was chignoned and the Who was always playing so of that period After I had been inducted there were so yiant spaces so s I blocked out It was such an ai we did was up-to-the-minute the restaurants we ate in the hotels we stayed at the people we hung out with In New York we joked about never staying at an address that wasn’t a 10021 zip code chartered 737s flew us to weddings waiters never rushed us ere allowed to sarettes anywhere anted people didn’t want to like us because ere young and rich and beautiful and no one-I mean no one, Victor-was happy aboutto Bobby-’human nature’ but still, no one-and this is very important, Victor-no one was skeptical of us
"And we traveled Paleria Christmases in St Bart’s a week at Armani’s hoetting work, and then it was Cindy Crawford and Paulina Porizkova and and Claudia Schiffer and Yasmeen Ghauri Karen Mulder and Chloe Byrnes and Tammy Devol and Naomi and Linda and Elaine and and Jamie Fields and you had to know the codes to understand how things worked in this world it was ale and people learned how to behave inhes and then the dark patterns started appearing and when I told Bobby ’No one’s being themselves, everyone’s so phony,’ Bobby said ’Shhh’ and then whispered ’That is being themselves’
"Bobby would try and educatewhere he was going with this whole thing and he told ton was a terrorist’ and I’d look into that face and see those eyes those lips and things would just start unraveling and I becas and in showing the world you teach it what you want He would give me E M Forster novels and I never understood them and for sos like ’We are just reflections of our tiot more precise than that I would ask him questions like ’What does fin de siecle mean?’ and he would talk for an hour about the inherent evil in rap round somewhere