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My body huht I was doing as best for you" Cooper leans up on an elbow and gazes into " He leans down and kisses ht that I once had leftaround his neck "I was afraid I didn’t think ould survive if I had hs "All I used to see was Kevin hovering over you when I broke the door down I couldn’t get the picture out of my head The problem was me Jay, all me"

I reach up and cup Cooper’s cheek "I know, but I wasn’t helping either You picked up the pieces for h but it wasn’t I pushed you for so you weren’t ready for"

Cooper crashes his lips to hly at first and then he slows it down a notch I run ot his full attention "Just let me love you"

"Okay" He says in a husky voice "One day at a tiainst each other"

I nod in agreeroans, "Stop that"

I s the fact that I can still affect hiain He ss a few ti for "You didn’t…" He can’t even finish his sentence

I let hiaze pinned to mine

I shake my head and say, "I haven’t"

Cooper exhales and his body relaxes "Can I ask you as really going on with you and Eli? I know you two have been hanging out a lot recently"

I look away and then back to hirowls and braces himself over me "A curveball, huh?"

I nod

"I’ll show you a curve ball"

Cooper takes his tiain He starts fro, not even sure what I’ back to look at ht now isn’t what he wants at all I can see that, and feel it "I’ no, I’m just…" he pauses He shows me his intentions with a kiss, so pure, so…Cooper "I’ special for you," his lips find ful kiss, "for me…" they’re back, sweet, tender, slow and torturous, "…for us"

Suddenly I’ together

"I just can’t tonight Not after everything What we share needs to be between us and not e’re feeling this raw"

His words have ot one week before I have to report back to baseball and ain I want to take this next step with Jaylinn before I have to leave and I thought what better time to use our Christmas present than now