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"What about all of the girls you’ve dated?" I kneas reaching "I’m sure there’ve been some who loved you, and irl has ever loved me You have to know someone to love them They’ve all been infatuations They wanted to own uilt as I recognized the feeling he described And just when I was afraid he would notice, Jamie Moore’s face flashed into iven the chance As much as I did not want to think about her, I felt a pull in that direction

"There’s a girl at uess it hen you first moved here She was really nice Jament, but kept his eyes on the road I didn’t continue I was afraid I’d pushed my luck too far, and the topic made me nervous anyway

"Look, here’s the deal," Kaidan said "They all know up front I’m not interested in a relationship I never lie to any of them I don’t need to The truth hurts worse than a lie Jae me It was a foolish notion"

It seemed that he wanted me to believe he was hardened, but I didn’t I had seen cracks, gli under it all So I went for it

"Do you ever feel sorry for the?" I rushed on before he could answer "Please, I don’t ure you out"

His grip tightened on the steering wheel, turning his knuckles white

"What if I say no, hmm? What if I have no compassion for the ones I’ve hurt--no, better yet, the ones who have allowed theht out the pain?"

I held my hands inbrown at the edges

"Then I would feel bad for you," I said

"Why?"

"Because that’s a sad way to live, and I care about you"

"Don’t say that" His tone was edgy, al You hardly know me"

"And you hardly know me, but here we are You offered to take azillion questions You haven’t forced , and you haven’t exposed lad to be here with you"

There I’d said it We searched each other’s eyes for a rip on the steering wheel loosened My pulse slowed to nor," he began "Now and then we’ll hook up twice, three times max But I try not to think of them as individuals It’s purely physical I ive out et it from other people They’ll coifts--I’ine"

I wished I couldn’t