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She grabsis it’s hard, okay? I shouldn’t have said what I did back there, but I’m scared" She takes a step closer, voice quiet when she says, "I’ not to be, but I’m terrified of what it could be like with you"

"God--" I start, squeezingboth hands intome, but my fuse has officially run out "Don’t you think this is scary for e of the surf touches the very tips of our toes The tide is co in, and in a dramatic rush I want to see it crash over me "Don’t you think I’m already in too deep?" I tell her "If you decide now that we aren’t doing this, it’s going to hurt But that was true a while ago and I decided to roll with it I decided you’re worth it That’s the difference Fuck, I think I finally figured it out: falling in love isn’t about who makes you feel the best, but who could make you the most miserable if they leave"

I HEAR A key in the lock about tenainst the couch "No," I say, and my sister’s response is iot"

I hear her drop a bag near the door before she flops on the couch next to ive you shit for soor another ht with London and I can only assuh some form of female telepathy, you’ve found out and are over here to hand me my ass"

"Wow," she says

I tilt ?"

"Wellno"

I nod my head and take another pull from my beer

"But I did run into Lola earlier, and she mentioned that London came home upset"

I know London is upset I’ it is like a punch to ht," I say

"She didn’t tell me why--I’m not actually sure that Lola knohy, because London isn’t apparently thewhen it cou and she continues "Do you want to talk about it?"

"Nope"

"Luke"

I sigh, knowing I’ll never get out of this "Soot stays silent, staring forward at the TV

"I wish I’d never brought her horeat she is I’d never realize that I want soht London ho and Mia was never the girl for hs "So letsome trust issues with Luke thebut stars "So even if that’s not me anymore? If I’m not with anyone but London, if I still only want her, I’ll still be branded that forever?"

She tilts her head "Well, no Not exactly Butlike, how does she know that?"