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"Pull away? Why the fuck would I pull away now?" I shift and hold her gaze I don’t knohat else I have to do to prove to this wo she can do would pushher insecurities It gutsshe is? How her body, even after the fire, after having Low, is theseen? And it’saze looking down at her hands now resting in her lap

"Kadence," I sigh, not sure how I can even begin "I fuckin’ love you Yes, your pussy is fuckin’ incredible, but, baby, you’remy reply to her stupid-ass assesshtstand and flick the switch to off

"What are you doing?" she asks as I lay back down, tucking her back into my front

"I’onna hold you and we’re gonna sleep And ht"

"You’re not ready, baby, and I’ot you back, Kadence My cock can wait I don’t think I can cope if you check out like that again," I ad the fear in my confession I knoe’veback to that place has onna be here I love you and when you’re ready, I’onna sink my cock home, doin’ it knowin’ you fuckin’ want it ason this I’ive et ivethe last say

"I know, baby, and I fuckin’ love you" She ueentry I let her push into ht not like handing it over, but I will if that’s what she needs I push all thoughts of sex out of my head, and let Kadence’s kiss take over I allow her mouth to tease me into subotten hoell my woman can kiss, to the point that I nearly co hard

CHAPTER SIX

Kadence

"He’s been waking up once a night for the last week" Holly tellsHarlow sit up on her own and Xzavier try to roll over

Last night after Nix and I talked, we kissed like teenagers for what felt like hours, before finally drifting off to sleep I don’t knohy, but the whole scene feltoff and ," I s of jealousy that Holly has had a breeze with baby X I know everyone is different, and with Low’s allergy, things would always be harder, but that small wish that I had what she has, stirs inI’ When I freak out, she’s cals that even I can see the irony in, but I’m truly happy for her I’d never hat Nix and I went through with Low on anyone It’s just sometimes hard when I hear how easy it could have been I have to remind myself that every baby is different Every journey is different, and it doesn’t make it worthway in the last four er there So that will just go away, and we deal with it constantly But at least I feel like I have a handle on it That day, fourNix admit that he couldn’t do it any, but I didn’t want to acknowledge that I needed help I wanted the happy family, the perfect child, and I had that, but it wasn’t what I had expected I felt weak, but ad back now, I knoasn’t failing as a ainst the current, you lose the energy to swi with postpartum depression didn’t make me less of a mom, it was a symptom of motherhood I didn’t plan for it, but I sure learnt fro?" Moaway the fog Holly looksto be worried about I’ to his first sleepover at Mo the focus off ood best friend she is

"He is?" I ask as a s Low for a night

"Yeah, Sy has organized this aht away for Valentine’s Day I can’t wait What are you and Nix doing?"

"I don’t know" I look to ive anything away, shaking her head "We haven’t discussed it" I shrug, wondering if Nix has even thought about it