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"I didn’t choose Filip"

"You didn’t choosefroht, and every night after"

"No," I said firmly, "I wanted you"

"Because you didn’t know the real ive in toliketo anotherit senton pressure? To engage in sex he wasn’t co all the abuse I knew about--and the abuse I could only iether, then be appalled at hi deeper with him "Will you tell me when you first realized your particular interests?"

His voice was so grave when he asked, "I’m to reveal even more?"

"Yes, Sevastyan," I answered "There’s no word limit here"

His brows drew together "It didn’t start out as a sexual thing"

"I don’t understand"

He exhaled "I’d always had , I suddenly had no one Though there were other children, I couldn’t connect with the alone Even at that age, I decided that I needed a wife--ould belong to e of all things Yet decades later, he’d never wed He wants to h to h to realize I was ho to offer anyone Until a year later" He trailed off

"Tell me"

With reluctance, he said, "There was a back-alley prostitute that all the boys used to watch I could tell she was feigning passion with her clients, faking screaed to think of all the things he’d seen when living on the streets