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Thank you, God, for giving this ripped my hair a little harder "I want you to et there, I want you to stand with your back to it and place your hands out so they are resting on thetone he took, turned me on and called to a need I never knew I had before I met him - the need to hand control over to someone else

I did as he said and waited silently at the end of the bed He took his time, and when he finally stood in front offor one ofthis with hhis face tokiss God, I loved the way he kissed naled his possessiveness overpossessed by a man, I now realised I craved a man who needed ht his hands to eous, sweetheart Why do you ever doubt that?" His eyes were focused completely on mine while he waited for me to answer his question

I sed back my hesitation This part of my soul was a part I chose to avoid as best I could "I don’t know," I said softly, not wanting to admit to him the truth

His eyes narrowed on me "I don’t believe you Tell me"

Shame washed over me, and I wished I could break free of his restraints and run far away froue for a beat, and then he kissed ain When he pulled away fro a step back, he let his gaze drop to my body and took it all in Slowly

Usually, I liked his eyes on me, but today, I felt so self-conscious in my own skin now that he’d put the focus onatinadequate and fat rushed at me – bad ain

And, oh God, then he dropped to his knees in front of me, put his hands on my hips, and pressed his mouth toevery inch of skin His hands ran all overbeautiful I was

When he made his way to my mouth, he looked into my eyes and said, "Tell me why you believe what I see when I look at you isn’t a beautiful body"

He’s not going to let this go

I closed my eyes as my heart beat faster, and ain, tears sat on my eyelashes "I’ve always seen myself as fat, even when I was a nine-year-old kid as far from fat My mother was always on a diet when I lived with her, and everywhere I looked on television and inyourself get fat So I began counting calories at the age of about twelve And then, I did beco calories, I just kept eating" My voice cracked as I adood when nothing else in my life did I don’t knohy, and I’ve never worked it out, but it is what it is About five years ago, when the doctor told ht It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done And the really shitty thing? When you’re fat, you think that if you could just get skinny, it wouldelse would improve Well, it doesn’t And you have to keep on top of it just ashard"

He listened to everything I said and didn’t say a word

I want to die

I’d just laid

I’d never felt so vulnerable inall over the place

And then he placed his hand to rew fierce, and his eyes burned with fire "I don’t care what the fuck anyone ever tells you again, you are the rippedhis hand toa lot of women don’t, sweetheart – an outer beauty thatfucking calories again I want you to eat the godda time I take you to that diner, and I don’t want you to put makeup on or do your hair when I take you there" He paused for ain a forcefulbecause they are all the honest fucking truth"

If I wasn’t tied to the bed, I was sure I would have collapsed onto the floor and sobbed Instead, I sagged against him and he heldhis arht he didn’t kno to love people He was so wrong

Griff’s compassion and kindness blared fro, I looked up at him and smiled "I’m sorry, I kinda ruined the sex, didn’t I?"

With one ar me, he used his other hand to wipe ht, but I’ll keep the balls for another time" His eyes darkened and he said, "I want you on the bed"