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"What was it like for you growing up with Mu pedicures the next afternoon

Her question surprisedout of the blue like that We’d spoken a little about Mum over the last six months, but the topic almost felt out of bounds uessed with Mum now back in our lives, the hurt was front and centre anyway, so there was nothing holding us back fro when I lived with her that I adored her She could do no wrong inabout it now, as an adult looking back, she struggled as a hty Instead of teaching me boundaries, she’d just send me to my bedroom and not talk to me Her te, and I would then spend days trying to please her and ot an’s eyes ide "I don’t re the truth but at the sa to shatterto do To top it off, I felt awful because I wanted her to see how badly our mother had treated us I almost wanted to shake the God’s honest truth into her, but I knew I could never be so cruel Kids eventually grew up, and at some point their eyes would open and they would work the bad stuff out for themselves That was one of the bitches of life You couldn’t hide frorown a little bit She was so young when she had me I don’t know…no mother is perfect, and I don’t ever expect perfection from a person, but I feel like she didn’t try to do better," I said

"She said she’s going to try to be better now And she still wants you to be part of her life Do you think you ever will be?" The hope on Magan’s face made me pause for a moment She had an almost desperate need for me to want to be part of their lives, and I so wanted to be a part of Magan’s life, but not our an

I shook an, but I can’t Too much has happened for me to be able to let her back in I don’t trust her…and without trust, I have nothing" My voice wobbled, and as oddah of my life already – this stuff hurt

She took all of that in, and finally nodded "Okay" It was only one word, but I felt the emotion behind it, and I valued it for what it represented – her acceptance of my decision

"Thank you," I whispered

"So," she said, changing the conversation, "what’s happening with lover boy?"

I grinned "I’ him that He’s so far from a boy, babe"

"Good, I’ll be sure to call him that when I see hies for He did ht bulb and washer, and now he’s going to fix hed