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She’s watching ht ahead "It’ll only be for a few hours I get the sense Jen doesn’t have many friends I don’t either It’s nice to find one who doesn’t think I’m out to fk her boyfriend behind her back"
I have to look at her now, shocked at the harsh way she just spoke "Did you used to do that? Fuck other girls’ boyfriends behind their backs?"
She shoots h escapes her "Fine I made one mistake Only because he lied to irlfriend I was a sophoeous Popular Played on the football team, sort of like a weak copy of you We went out on a few dates He was always sneakingme out in public or with his friends, but I didn’t care I was too far gone over hi in a bad direction I can feel it "A weak copy of me?" What, does she have a pattern? A type she prefers? Is she saying I fall under that type?
"You knohat I ave upus closer and he would fall totally in love with ht after I had sex with hi me because she wouldn’t irl ould"
I both feel sorry for her and infuriated with her that she would do so so careless "So what, you were fifteen when you were first with that guy?"
"Yeah"
"How uys have you been with, Fable?" Okay, now I totally sound like the jealous asole boyfriend I don’t want to be that guy I know she needs to get her past off her chest and it shouldn’t matter It shouldn’t hurt me I didn’t know her then We were both different people then
But knowing about her past does hurt I can’t deny it
"You’re going to autoeous, aren’t you? I really didn’t expect you to pass judgment on me like everyone else in my life" She crosses her arured you were better than that"
Fuck How do I respond? I’ve blown it completely Now she’s pissed I can practically see the stea out of her ears She refuses to look at ht ahead for the rest of the ride to her apartry in a matter of minutes, that’s what I just did to her And why? Because I’ a little possessive of her time and I want her to spend it all with irlfriend before I’ve never been so-one-years old and I’m a complete, clueless idiot when it comes to relationships and how tolot of her apartment complex and her hand is already on the door handle She looks ready to leap out of the vehicle while it’s still in et away fro the brakes, I wait for her to respond but she doesn’t Her back is to ht out the door I’ve hurt her and I hate that
"I’ht to do so You accept all lare at me "Because I accept your faults, you’ll accept mine? Is that all this is? If so, I need more from you, Drew This isn’t some tit-for-tat sort of deal I need your trust I need you to believe that I want to be with you and only you And my past can’t shade our present or our future My past has always followed me and you knohat sucks? Most of the stories out there are co steps, a few bada h school, outside of high school…"
I reht I can’t let her past botherus up to fail
"I’ to pay forout with Jen touys or anything like that"
"I never said it was"
Her eyes soften the slightest bit "So what’s the probleood at this sort of thing I’ainst the edge of the steering wheel, unsure of what to say next, feeling edgy as hell
She holds all the cards in this argu to say I’oing to fly forever, you know After a while, it’ll just get old"
"What are we doing, Fable?" I ask incredulously
She shrugs "Having our first fight as a couple?"
I want to laugh but I don’t "Ion between us?"
"If you have to ask, that scares me," she ansarily
"Are we really a couple? Are we in a relationship? We haven’t defined it yet"
"Do we need to? Can’t we just take it day by day?" She turns away from me and stares out the"I’m tired Maybe we shouldn’t talk about this now"
Panic rises within me "But…"
"I think I want to be alone I’m super tired and the last few days have been sorta overwhel over so she can h the still-open door "I’ll call you toood My throat’s dry and I can hardly force any words out, I’ain "Yeah," I croak before she slams the door "Call me"
She offers me a tiny smile before she lets the door close And then she turns and walks away
Taking my heart with her
Chapter Fourteen
If I had a flower for every tiarden forever – Alfred Tennyson
Fable