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I’m too lost to be saved for you, Ro I hate that But I have to be straight with you

Whatever Violet and Ryder told you … it’s the truth I’m a thief When we first met, yes, I saw you, a beautiful woman, but what really drew me to you was that damn necklace The Poppy Necklace I had plans to steal it that night

But then I

That’s what I do, you see I steal, h when I first started out, I was a pickpocket It all came about when I was fifteen and realized that we had no more money My mom had zero skills and couldn’t work, besides the fact that she was a nervous wreck and on all sorts of medication What my father did wrecked her completely I hate hi wallets soon becaed avethose earrings Did she ever s were stolen? I took advantage of her when she was drunk and pulled the diaht out of her ears It was so easy Too easy I didn’t feel an ounce of guilt for doing that More like I got a thrill After that I was hooked

My et the money to take care of her At least, I’ve never told her It’s easier that way and she can believe whatever she wants I don’t want to break her heart It’s already destroyed enough over what my father did to her She needsI don’t knoould happen to her So I keep it my secret My burden to bear, that I’ve just shared with you

But it’s not your burden and I don’t want to become your burden, either You deserve h I fir special these last weeks and that IYou would’ve becorow to hate ive my sins?

I took the necklace, Ro I found it in the safe in the closet and I kept it infor days, over a week, and you never noticed I felt like such shit I still do But in the end I didn’t take it I just put it back in the safe Keep it close People want it Private collectors ould love to add it to their collection You need to keep it in a safe place, baby

I hate that I was so weak and that I took it That I was even teive me someday

I’m also weak because I can’t admit any of this to you to your face so I leave you a letter on shitty hotel stationery, written with the equally shitty hotel pen You’re sleeping peacefully and I didn’t want to wake you You look so beautiful lying there naked with just the sheet covering you The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do is walk away fro everything here in this letter I probably couldn’t have got the words out if we talked And I didn’t want to see the look on your pretty face I didn’t want to hear your angry, ugly words You would’ve been justified in saying it all to ether being so fucking awful

That’s probably why you did what you did Why you told me you didn’t want to hear my side of the story Deep down, you know the truth Why wreck e shared e can walk away and never see each other again?

It killsyou I’ll h The way you say my name just before you come, the way you kiss me and hold ue I’ll ether and going out for coffee, and I’ll even miss the White Swan I’ll h they probably hatemoment, for every one of those ed Like I had friends and a girlfriend and an honest life I felt like people really liked ht I was rich or that I belonged to their social clique or whatever the fuck