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Marianne seemed much struck

"I have very often wished to undeceive yourself and my mother," added Elinor; "and once or twice I have atte my trust, I never could have convinced you"

"Four months!--and yet you loved him!"-"Yes But I did not love only hilad to spare the how much I felt

Now, I can think and speak of it with little emotion I would not have you suffer on er suffer s to supportprovoked the disappointment by any imprudence ofit farther

I acquit Edward of essential misconduct I wish hi his duty, that though now he ret, in the end he must become so Lucy does not want sense, and that is the foundation on which every thing good may be built--And after all, Marianne, after all that is bewitching in the idea of a single and constant attach entirely on any particular person, it is not meant--it is not fit--it is not possible that it should be so-- Edill marry Lucy; he willto half her sex; and tiht another superior to HER"-"If such is your way of thinking," said Marianne, "if the loss of what iselse, your resolution, your self-command, are, perhaps, a little less to be wondered at--They are brought more within my comprehension"

"I understand you--You do not suppose that I have ever felton le creature; knowing that it would make you and my mother most unhappy whenever it were explained to you, yet unable to prepare you for it in the least-- It was told me,--it was in a manner forced on eht, with triumph-- This person's suspicions, therefore, I have had to oppose, by endeavouring to appear indifferent where I have been most deeply interested;--and it has not been only once;--I have had her hopes and exultation to listen to again and again-- I have knownone circumstance that couldhas proved hi declared hiainst the unkindness of his sister, and the insolence of his mother; and have suffered the punishes-- And all this has been going on at a time, when, as you know too well, it has not been my only unhappiness-- If you can think --surely you may suppose that I have suffered NOW The coht myself at present to consider theto admit, have been the effect of constant and painful exertion;--they did not spring up of themselves;--they did not occur to relieve my spirits at first-- No, Marianne--THEN, if I had not been bound to silence, perhaps nothing could have kept me entirely--not even what I owed tothat I was VERY unhappy"-Marianne was quite subdued-"Oh! Elinor," she cried, "you have made me hate myself for ever--How barbarous have I been to you!--you, who have been my only comfort, who have borne withfor ratitude?--Is this the only return I can make you?--Because yourto do it away"