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Marianne would have thought herself very inexcusable had she been able to sleep at all the first night after parting frohby She would have been asha, had she not risen from her bed in more need of repose than when she lay down in it But the feelings which er of incurring it She ake the whole night, and she wept the greatest part of it She got up with a headache, was unable to talk, and unwilling to take any nourish pain everyall attempt at consolation froh!

When breakfast was over she walked out by herself, and wandered about the village of Allenha over the present reverse for the chief of the ence of feeling She played over every favourite song that she had been used to play to Willoughby, every air in which their voices had been oftenest joined, and sat at the instru on every line of music that he had written out for her, till her heart was so heavy that no farther sadness could be gained; and this nourishrief was every day applied She spent whole hours at the pianoforte alternately singing and crying; her voice often totally suspended by her tears In books too, as well as in music, she courted the misery which a contrast between the past and present was certain of giving She read nothing but what they had been used to read together

Such violence of affliction indeed could not be supported for ever; it sunk within a few days into a calmer melancholy; but these employments, to which she daily recurred, her solitary walks and silent meditations, still produced occasional effusions of sorrow as lively as ever

No letter frohby came; and none seemed expected by Marianne

Her ain became uneasy But Mrs Dashwood could find explanations whenever she wanted them, which at least satisfied herself

"Remember, Elinor," said she, "how very often Sir John fetches our letters himself froreed that secrecy e that it could not be h Sir John's hands"

Elinor could not deny the truth of this, and she tried to find in it a motive sufficient for their silence But there was one ible of knowing the real state of the affair, and of instantly re it to her mother