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The bad weather has returned No one comes to see me Julie watches by

ive as

Now that I am so near death, in spite of what the doctors tellworse, I am almost sorry

that I listened to your father; if I had known that I should only be

taking a year of your future, I could not have resisted the longing

to spend that year with you, and, at least, I should have died with a

friend to hold ether this

year, I should not have died so soon

God's will be done!

February 5

Oh, co to die, O God!

I was so , which

see as the last, anywhere but at

hoht of

this old otten,fever which devoured me, I made them dress e for me, without which

I should have looked like a corpse I had the box where I gave you our