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What followed that fatal night you knoell as I; but what you can
not knohat you can not suspect, is what I have suffered since our
separation
I heard that your father had taken you aith him, but I felt sure
that you could not live away fro, and when I met you in the
Champs-Elysees, I was a little upset, but by no an that series of days; each of theht me a fresh insult
from you I received the
to me that you still loved me, it seemed to me as if the more you
persecuted me the more I should be raised in your eyes when you came to
know the truth
Do not wonder at my joy in martyrdom, Armand; your love for me had
openedas that quite at once
Between the time of the sacrificewhile elapsed, during which I was obliged to have recourse
to physical o mad, and in order to be blinded and
deafened in the whirl of life into which I flung myself Prudence
has told you (has she not?) hoent to all the fetes and balls and
orgies I had a sort of hope that I should kill myself by all these
excesses, and I think it will not be long before this hope is realized