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For a few moments she let the solar syste she had thought stable go up in slessly, there came an intense quiet
She knew that the outer world was as serene as ever; but a great
throbbing pain within showed her that it was only her own little atom of
self that was revolutionized Nature was not upset There was still
order for her to hold fast to For the first tian to analyze
herself and her emotions
She could not say that she had planned her future, but it had seemed so
natural and inevitable that she had accepted it without planning, aled to each other ever since they
could remember At ten they had been outspoken lovers, and ever since
there had been that intimate comradeship that seemed to her to imply the
unspoken relation, behind, above, below All this she had taken for
granted, likewomanhood And now Dick,
the chief corner-stone of her edifice, was torn away, and the whole airy
structure toppled and dissolved
"I've been assue isn't
a thing to take for granted Shouldn't I have resented it if Dick had
appropriated ed to him and had lost my freedom of
choice? I've been unfair to him And now--if I should never s left in the world But are there?"