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As I had grown accustoun to

notice their effect upon myself and those around uised fronition as ood I lived in a state of

chronic uneasiness respecting my behavior to Joe My conscience was not

by any ht,--like

Camilla,--I used to think, with a weariness on my spirits, that I should

have been happier and better if I had never seen Miss Havisham's face,

and had risen to manhood content to be partners with Joe in the honest

old forge Many a ti at the

fire, I thought, after all there was no fire like the forge fire and the

kitchen fire at home

Yet Estella was so inseparable from all my restlessness and disquiet of

mind, that I really fell into confusion as to the limits ofI had had no expectations,

and yet had had Estella to think of, I could not make out to my

satisfaction that I should have donethe

influence of my position on others, I was in no such difficulty, and so

I perceived--though dih perhaps--that it was not beneficial

to anybody, and, above all, that it was not beneficial to Herbert