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She was here in this hard, stark reality--reality It
was queer that she should call this the reality, which she had
never known till to-day, and which now so filled her with dread
and dislike, that she wished she o away This was the
reality, and Cossethay, her beloved, beautiful, wellknown
Cossethay, which was as herself unto her, that was minor
reality This prison of a school was reality Here, then, she
would sit in state, the queen of scholars! Here she would
realize her dreaht
and joy to her children! But the desks before her had an
abstract angularity that bruised her senti she had been a fool in her
anticipations She had brought her feelings and her generosity
to where neither generosity nor emotion anted And already
she felt rebuffed, troubled by the new atmosphere, out of
place
She slid down, and they returned to the teacher's rooht to alter one's personality She
was nobody, there was no reality in herself, the reality was all
outside of her, and she must apply herself to it
Mr Harby was in the teachers' roo,
open cupboard, in which Ursula could see piles of pink
blotting-paper, heaps of shiny new books, boxes of chalk, and