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But it had shocked him, and put a mistrust into his heart,

and emphasized his fear of ithin hiain in his own careless,

happy-go-lucky fashion, his blue eyes just as clear and honest

as ever, his face just as fresh, his appetite just as keen

Or apparently so He had, in fact, lost sooing

For some time after this, he was quieter, more conscious when

he drank, more backward from companionship The disillusion of

his first carnal contact othened by his innate

desire to find in a woious i to lose which he was afraid of losing,

which he was not sure even of possessing This first affair did

not matter much: but the business of love was, at the botto of all to hiination

reverted always to lustful scenes But what really prevented his

returning to a loose woman, over and above the natural

squeamishness, was the recollection of the paucity of the last

experience It had been so nothing, so dribbling and functional,

that he was ashamed to expose hi, instinctive fight to retain his native

cheerfulness unimpaired He had naturally a plentiful stream of

life and hu