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The daylight came I rose at dawn I busied s in my chamber, drawers, and wardrobe,

in the order wherein I should wish to leave the a brief

absence Meantime, I heard St John quit his room He stopped at

my door: I feared he would knock--no, but a slip of paper was

passed under the door I took it up It bore these words "You left er, you would have laid your hand on the Christian's cross and

the angel's crown I shall expect your clear decision when I return

this day fortnight Meantime, watch and pray that you enter not

into te, but the flesh, I

see, is weak I shall pray for you hourly--Yours, ST JOHN"

"My spirit," I answered ht;

and h to accomplish the will of

Heaven, when once that will is distinctly known to h to search--inquire--to grope an outlet

from this cloud of doubt, and find the open day of certainty"

It was the first of June; yet thewas overcast and chilly:

rain beat fast on my casement I heard the front-door open, and St