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In other people's presence I was, as formerly, deferential and

quiet; any other line of conduct being uncalled for: it was only in

the evening conferences I thus thwarted and afflicted him He

continued to send for h when I appeared before hi" on his lips: the best words atpuppet," "," &c For caresses, too, I now got grimaces; for a

pressure of the hand, a pinch on the arm; for a kiss on the cheek, a

severe tweak of the ear It was all right: at present I decidedly

preferred these fierce favours to anything more tender Mrs

Fairfax, I saw, approved me: her anxiety on my account vanished;

therefore I was certain I did well Meanti hieance for hed in my sleeve at his menaces "I can keep you in reasonable

check now," I reflected; "and I don't doubt to be able to do it

hereafter: if one expedient loses its virtue, another must be

devised"

Yet after all my task was not an easy one; often I would rather have

pleased than teased hi to me my

whole world; and more than the world: alht of religion, as an eclipse

intervenes between man and the broad sun I could not, in those

days, see God for His creature: of whom I had made an idol