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"And you're my favorite sister" He said with humor

"I'm your only sister" I quipped back at hi chuckle

I s the solid presence of ave up to it as I relaxed for the first tih it alive without after all

I slept ht across the country to California, where we boarded the overseas flight to New Guinea It was Keko's turn to sleep then, but I ide aith nothing to do

I glanced at htly drooling I got a napkin and dabbed at the corner of his htly He would be so e

I studied him as he slept My brother was a handsome man and everywhere he ofancy as a dinner companion or someone to see a shoith

I'd asked him why he didn't settle dohen he had his pick of anyone he wanted along with the eon He'd said that he aiting for the right one

I wished I'd done that, but that would'vewith a man I didn't know about that yet Maybe it would happen

I enty-eight If I wanted children I had better start thinking about it

I wasn't sure I wanted children I'd had such a mixed up childhood My owna faht I'd do little better than her if given the opportunity, at least that was my fear

I didn't want to mess up my kids like that Better not to have any then, but I couldn't help how alone I felt I wasn't going back to the kind of relationships that I had escaped froh

Shamefully I adled against I lanced outby The next time, if there was a next time it would be with a man and it would be for keeps like it was supposed to be

Slowly I whispered out, "I make that a promise to you God! I solemnly swear, but please as much as I don't want to be alone in life I also don't want to surrender to a man and experience his touch and control over e! I will change!" I finished resolutely, as I addressed maybe perhaps the first prayer I'd said in years to otten me and my sin