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Anyan’s voice shook, and he fell silent I took s off of his lap and scootched ainst hi
"I went… a bit crazy after that That’s another reason I felt for you so much after Jason died I’d been there Like I said, I was too exhausted to go on a rae, so I just sort of turned inward When I ca to be as it was They had arranged a celebration, of all things I left the Co never to return
"I did, of course The Alfar that ruled us were heartless bastards, but they weren’t really evil So when ones that actually were evil did attack, I’d let ainst worse eneht for our leaders That was a few Alfar ago, anyway, but still I’e"
With that Anyan took ers, idly
"So that’sme," I said, fervently He now ht "What was her nalad I asked
"It was Manera It ht’ And I named our son Samoset, before I buried him"
And that’s when I lost it I’d been processing everything as he spoke, and I’d welled up when he said the thing about understandinghi he’d had to name his son even as he buried him…
My face cru downme close "Shh…"
But I didn’t shh I buriedFor him and his ideals and the person he’d been I also cried for the uilt for a boy’s actions
"I’ stupid for crying when it was his wife and child who’d been lost But his expression was affectionate when I looked up at hi away s happen all the tiht me about priorities"
"So why do you and Ryu hate each other?" I asked I’d always been convinced there
Anyan chuckled "I don’t hate Ryu He just reminds me so much of myself, before Manera died I want to shake him And I know he looks athe’s alanted, in terms of power and status But I constantly hand it back when it’s offered, and go back to my little cabin He thinks I’?"
"I wouldn’t say that I had a bedn She was beautiful, a vicious fighter, and a bit of a bitch He seduced her away fro that I’d be devastated But while I’d respected her and had been attracted to her, I didn’t really like her all that much So I wasn’t bothered I think that really pissed hi of jealousy at the hot but bitchy woman he’d slept with and ahter
"Oh, Ryu," I said "That sounds like him"
"But I was not aone dark
I blinked up at him "Why not?"
"It was like with Manera," he said "You were this girl Sweet and definitely cute, but a girl When I’d visited you in the hospital, I just wanted to comfort you I didn’t see you as a woman," he admitted I reminded myself that he obviously did see me as a wo hit the fan, and I saw you with Ryu I realized you’d grown up, and that you were aweso me awesome "Yeah, awesome," I said
"Seriously, you were You’d recovered froe trauone from cute to hot, and it was even sexier that you had no idea I got so mad because I knew I could really see you, and that all Ryu saas so else I wanted to punch him in the face," he admitted
"And is that when you realized you likedPart of me just really wanted to hear that he did, indeed, like ainst hiently When he withdrew his lips, he kept his eyes on mine "That’s when I realized I liked you And then you kicked my ass that tiated your mother’s death, and I realized I more than just liked you"