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“I’ve told you a thousand tier, but you still don’t listen,” he continued “You never get it through your head, do you? I guess sluts like you can’t control thes Bitches Do you want me to train you?”

I took a deep breath, then let it out, closing ht I knehat the next step was Our little dance ell-choreographed

“Yes, Zach,” I whispered, feelingIf I drew far enough away from reality, it wouldn’t hurt as bad when he started really hitting irl,” healmost human

I knelt down and opened the drawer under the oven, looking for so pan I usually used There was also a large, cast-iron skillet that I’d found when I moved into the apartment

I’d never cooked with it—cast iron always seee and scary topan? Because it was different than what I was used to? But changing how you do anything is difficult

I could do it, though

I could use that pan

Almost in a dream, I reached down and picked up the skillet How hard would it be …? Harder than a ainst your flesh? Harder than cracked ribs, blackened eyes—your baby screaet off the floor to pick hi you is hard

But it can be done

The pan was heavy Really heavy My ar Noah for years—this was nothing in comparison I stood up and set the skillet on the stove, reaching over and turning on the burner

“I think we need to get sorinning at me, all pleased with himself Only seconds had passed as I found the skillet, but everything had changed I feltplace

“You sentto do I’ll adet aith it Then you stole ht me, I’ll kill you In fact, I won’t just kill you, I’ll kill Noah Never did like that little shit”

Another gut punch He hadn’t used his fists this ti skillet

“Maybe I’ll just make him disappear,” he muttered “Just take his little ass and duain, alonder if he’s dead or alive Maybe if you’re really good, I’ll tell you where the body is for his eighteenth birthday …”

I turned to grab eggs out of the fridge, glancing toward Zach He was looking down at one of his hands, for thecarton on the counter Then I reached for a bowl to s and egg whites for extra protein I started cracking the like little skulls

They broke open so easily

I flicked another glance at hi and fisting