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I wind my hair into a honey bun and secure it with a ponytail holder “You knoho you sound like? You sound likebecause you don’t want to answer the question”

“I answered it, you just didn’t like my answer”

We pull up in front of ine, which is what he does when he wants to talk a little while longer So I don’t ju in hts are on upstairs Gosh To be sitting in the passenger seat of Peter Kavinsky’s black Audi Isn’t that what every girl has ever wanted, in the history of boys and girls? Not Peter Kavinsky specifically, or yes, maybe Peter Kavinsky specifically

Peter leans his head back against the headrest and closes his eyes

I say, “Did you know that when people fight with each other, that means they still really care about each other?” When Peter doesn’t answer, I say, “Genevieve must really have a hold on you”

I expect him to deny it, but he doesn’t Instead he says, “She does, but I wish she didn’t I don’t want to be owned by anyone Or belong to anyone”

Margot would say she belongs to herself Kitty would say she belongs to no one And I guess I would say I belong to my sisters andto someone—I didn’t know it, but now that I think about, it seems like that’s all I’ve ever wanted To really be somebody’s, and to have the this,” I tell hi “To prove you don’t belong to her Or with her” I stop “Do you think there’s a difference? Between belonging with and belonging to, I mean?”

“Sure One implies choice; the other doesn’t”

“You o to all this trouble”

Peter makes a dismissive sound “You’re too dreah I know he doesn’thim

I know I’ve succeeded when he says, his face sour, “What would you know about love, Lara Jean? You’ve never even had a boyfriend before”

I’m tempted to make up someone, a boy from camp, from another town, froue But it would be too hu; I already told him I never dated anybody before And even if I hadn’t, it is far more pathetic to make up a boyfriend than to just admit the truth “No, I’ve never had a boyfriend But plenty of people I know have had boyfriends but they’ve never once been in love I’ve been in love” That’s why I’ this

Peter snorts “With who? Josh Sanderson? That tool?”

“He’s not a tool,” I say, frowning at him “You don’t even know him to say that”

“Anybody with one eye and half a brain could tell what a tool that guy is”

“Are you saying my sister’s blind and brainless?” I demand If he says one bad word aboutis off I don’t need hi you are!”