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Everything ceased To matter Ceased, period
Because I love you
He stared at her, paralyzed under the onslaught of every contradictory emotion in existence She loved hi lips burying in its spasticity, her eyes glittering with so ht, and I’ve been falling deeper every moment since”
Was this how necrosis struck in so heat, like a laser? Could he have been blessed by so much, the love of this incomparable woman, her total trust…when he deserved none of it?
But no He deserved it For she’d seen through the thin layer of manipulation to the emotions that had blossomed toward her unchecked, unstoppable from the first, every spark of it true That hat hadhis feelings
And though he felt he deserved to lose her in atonement for how he’d led her on, how he still couldn’t confess everything, since it wasn’t only his life or fate in the balance, he had to reach out and take all she offered And she was offering her all And he needed it all to live, to exist He would throw his own need at her feet
He slipped off the bed, pulled her to its edge until he had her sitting up, then kneeled between her legs He wanted to pour it all out But he couldn’t He was overcome She had overco her naedly, as if in deepest prayer
She cried out, tried to pull his head up, her fingers tre in his hair He put his on top of hers, pressed them to his head, showed her he wanted to be cradled in her lap, needed to be held to her heart, surrounded by her generosity, blessed by her love
And hishot love and tears all over his face and hands
“Please-” she hiccupped “-don’tI kno honorable you are, and I’d die if I , and I never expected anything in return I’m just happy I’m normal, that I found you, a o on knowing I experienced true fulfillment That for once I had what ave ether”
He stared up at her, struck at the horror of what he’d inflicted on her She ht have subconsciously felt his emotions, but she’d been unable to believe they existed And she still hadn’t protected herself at all She’d given hi she’d have nothing of hiiven her so far would be enough
He surged, clamped his lips over hers, unable to bear one more word “B’Ellahi, ya habibati, er’ruhmuh…have mercy, my love Ahebbek, ya farah hayati, aabodek, I love you, joy of ht, anted everything to be perfection for you, wanted to give you tiht come to feel a fraction of what I feel for you You ownthe first to ever wake it You ownyours for the me your essence in all selflessness But you say you don’t expect anything of me Does this mean you don’t want it? Won’t you take it, when I offer it? Everything that I aive life reason and texture and purpose? Will you not one still with his first words, her eyes, those emerald heavens like pools in an earthquake, their waters welling, shaking in place When his heart easped as if she’d been underwater, was co breath Then the pools of her eyes turned to rivers, and her face shuddered out of control with jubilation and disbelief And finally, belief
And he was in her arms, crushed to her breasts, surrounded by her delirium and joy and the absoluteness of her love
And she sobbed it all to hi he craved to hear, her happiness as she consented “Yes, yes…yes, yes, I’ll be your wife, I’ll be with you always…” She withdrew, her eyes onder and love so fierce it was painful “Oh, God, you really love me”
He reared up, spread her on the bed, ca is a concept that has no equivalent in English, more selfless than love, carnal as fiercest lust and as reverent as worship and as iht it part of the innate hyperbole ofthat approxiek Enti ati What I feel, and what you are to me”
She melted beneath hi, toowill ever be tooI have or do or feel or am is yours Enti rohi, hayati…my soul and life…”
She arched beneath hih on his back “Please, my love, I can’t take anymore…just take me when I know it’s in love this time Love me, let me love you…”
He stroked into her, invaded her, surrendered, and that was all it took to bring them to ecstasy This time, when he jetted his seed into her womb, he roared his love And he was freed, free, completed, complete
“Of course I know it’s been six weeks…” Farah bit her lip as she put the phone away from her ear at the tirade that exploded on the other end “Bill, will you calm down?” She raised her voice into the ain “I will do the analysis today, promise” She paused, and Shehab couldn’t hold back anymore, walked to her, swept her up in his arms, took her to the couch, sat doith her on his lap, save hiratitude at his solicitude and aggravation at Bill’s fit Then she finally exhaled “OK, OK, Bill Don’t give yourself another coronary I’ll coe it”
She ended the call, looked up at hirowled “You don’t have to take orders from him anymore As my wife you can buy him out a dozen times over”