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The niggling feeling into work As much as I’d try to force it, to prove to myself that Ben fit intome it wouldn’t ever work I needed to cut rief Slaes of him with another woman, I curled into a ball and quietly sobbed I sobbed for what I’d seen, and I sobbed for my poor smashed-up heart It’d never recover I knew I’d always live with Ben in there and the realization terrified me

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Ben

"What do you think of this one?" I asked Bray, holding up an elaborately cut five-carat-dia completely out of place at Tiffany in his worn jeans and scuffed-up Chucks But I needed him here I needed his opinion "Ahhonestly? That’s too ht This was tooa little er So taken, but I needed to respect who she was I continued scanning the rows of rings

"What about this?" I held up a much simpler two-carat solitaire for him to inspect

"Yeah Actually, that’s perfect"

Exactly what I was thinking This would suit Emmy to a T It was sier "I’ll take it," I told the salesclerk

I dropped the ring into his waiting palht of kneeling on one knee and sliding this ring onto E into her pretty blue eyes made me feel like a das about Entire novels Shit I needed to pull it together I was getting fkingtool

I couldn’t wait to take Emmy out this weekend to celebrate, and I hoped when I pulled out the ring, she’d be surprised--in a good way I’d only hinted at s a surprise

"Wait" The salesclerk grinned up at uy from the video Fuckfor her?" He s for nized, but I had no clue what he was talking about And London? I hadn’t dated London in years "What video?"

He laughed and winked atabout I saw it online thisThat shit was hot"

Oh shit

Braydon and I exchanged a look of horror

Realization flooded me and I suddenly felt sick The blurry sex tape we’d recorded while drunk two years ago No way It couldn’t be I’d destroyed my copy and London had sworn she deleted hers, too

I sed the bitter taste in my mouth Awareness burned in the back oftold me Fiona was behind the leak of the tape I racked o I’d confided in her once I sobered up and realized that I’d fking recorded a sex tape I knew that if it got out, I’d need her help At the tiretted what London and I had done Fiona had assured apore e deleted the copy on my laptop Only noondered if she could have saved a copy for herself somewhere I would have never suspected her at the ti that ays had adjoining rooms back then, she had the opportunity and ht sickenedmy phone from my pocket I dialed E

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