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"The pain never gets easier Don’t listen to what anyone tells you Losing a child is… an impossible loss"

"I’m sorry," I said, unsure of what else to say

"Everybody kept saying, ‘At least you’re young enough to try again’" Mae slanced over to ain

"After Samuel died, I spentI had known and loved, was a million miles away, andhi to work and start a life for us…" She had a faraway expression for a moment, but then she remembered I was there and snapped herself out of it

"I was just a little older than you, so you can iine what it would be like," Mae looked at aze "I understand the excite offered a whole new life with an attractive stranger But you isolate yourself fro you know"

"I don’t feel isolated," I offered latowards Samuel’s headstone, and she wanted explain the ih when they out live everything around them

But she would’ve outlived her baby whether she was a va to do with the choices she ht ahead, her knuckles turning white fro wheel "Philip, bless his heart, stayed by ht’ve shipped me back home for my parents to deal with

"Eventually, I o on with ot a job at a deli to keep myself busy and made a few friends And one day, I decided it was tinant was thethat ever happened toinside ot harder when she turned toup, you know Vanant They don’t have children You will never have a family if you choose this life"

"I don’t think I want kids anyway" I had actually thought about it very little, but for thea child didn’t sound that appealing

"Well, you e your mind when the option is taken away fro for you to think about"

"I will," I promised her, but I doubted that it would affect retted never having children, I could only make the decision now, based onchildren didn’t seehter was born was the happiest day of my life" Her expression stretched into a deep smile, and her eyes filled with happy tears "She was so beautiful Her eyes were huge and blue, just like Philip’s And she had these soft, downy curls, the same as I had had when I was born I remember the first tiht of her body… I pro bad happen to her" She exhaled heavily, and the sadness started seeping into her eyes

"I named her Sarah, afterto catch a tear before it fell "Everyday with her was absolute heaven I’m sure every mother thinks her child was perfect, but she really was She rarely cried, and she ith this beautiful smile on her chubby cheeks I quit my job at the deli just so I could spend as much time with her as I could Every ht, I was preparing supper, and I realized that ere out of milk," Mae went on "We had aa toddler, ent through milk faster than nor not long before that

"Philip had just gotten home from work, so I didn’t want to send him back out Besides that, the corner ht

"I re dress with blue flowers that I’d made from a pattern It was one ofto ot ain, and I alo on anymore Whatever she had meant to tell me had become too painful, but finally, she continued

"He was so attractive that I would’ve gone with hirier with herself than him "I had barely made it a block, and then he just appeared out of nowhere

"In retrospect, he wasn’t half as handsome as Ezra is, but to ht When he led me away into the trees, I was too intoxicated by him to think of Sarah He sunk his teeth into ood, that I didn’t even care I should’ve been pleading for ," I tried to comfort her While I had never been in the exact same position, I kne impossible it was to think when a vampire wanted your blood "It wasn’t your fault"

"But I loved her!" Mae insisted fiercely "I just wanted to spend the rest ofa part of her life! But instead I went into a patch of trees, and let a vampire bite me