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It felt so good to finally let go To drop ed ers latched aroundto take you I’ainst her, wanting to lodge myself inside with one iony

I rocked forward, unable to understand why I couldn’t enter her Come on! I needed to be inside

Reaching between us,to where the head of ainst her folds

My world screeched to a fking halt

What--?

The beast froze, giving me one clear, untainted moment

She wasn’t wet

Not at all

Fuck This can’t…no…

A surge of agony hit raine shoved the , cursing, threatening toawful inside

What have I done?

I scra with horror "No No Fuck, no"

Tess was the driest I’d ever felt She isn’t wet Everything I’d let y fked-up brain conclude had been a lie She was drier than the Sahara

Lowunprotestingly and ready--ready forrape her

My heart broke into a bazillion fractured frag fro fk!

I could barely function My body crashed fro a junky who’d never be fixed

"Tess--oh, athered her freezing body off the floor Rocking back, I sat and leaned against the table leg, cocooning her onwith every ragged breath

Shit What have I done? What have I done!

Silence echoed horribly loud A minute ticked past Then another I didn’t knohat to say I had no clue how to fix the atrocity of what I’d co for forgiveness But this--this was unforgivable

Then Tess hiccupped, turning her face intoar the slickness of her tears They turned fro my soul forever

My fractured heart oozed with corruption and terror Everything she’d said was a lie She’d ainst her consent

I’d spun the worst kind of lies by listening to the darkness insideit forever Never again would I let ain would I believe what Tess said

Lies had the power to tear apart a relationship--it also had the power to kill

How one?

I never wanted to know the answer

My eyes se so hot and torrid I wanted to kill e dissolved under the colossal weight of guilt--rock after rock--burying me alive

"Why?" I whispered "Why did you let hter, completely terrified she’d walk out the door

How could she ever stand to look at y or heartfelt note could ever excuse al the woman I would die for

I couldn’t stomach it I couldn’t breathe with the enorave myself over to despair "Tess, je suis tellement désolé" I’m so unbelievably sorry

She hunched in on herself, but her arraine pressed me further into the depths of hell I suffocated on her hair I’d never be able to look into her eyes again

I was scu awful terrible scum

"Why? Why, Tess?" How could you lether head I gripped her harder, forcing her to stay, shaking untilcloser in my arms "Because I love you, and I didn’t want to let you down"

I couldn’t I couldn’t do it

I squeezed my eyes, unable to look at her I was the worst kind of villain Once a devil always a devil I’d finally shown my true form I’d shown Tess just how heinous I truly was I’d lost my soul

"Let me down? Fuck, Tess, you’ve just destroyed ainst your will"

She shook her head "It wasn’t against ave myself to you because I love you"

A cavernous hole opened inme down and down I didn’t deserve her love I deserved nothing Nothing

"You can’t love th I’d needed so badly shone in her gaze "Yes I do"

I couldn’t bear to look at her anyit was all I ever deserved

"Q--" Her hand landed on e

She’dthe perfect submissive She’d drawn out the part ofokay about that

"Don’t Just stop it None of this is okay Don’t you get it? I would’ve raped you I would’ve been no better than those fkers I’ve put down like dogs Don’t you dare tell me this is okay!"

Tess flinched but her touch never left elic and so forgiving

The anger suddenly evaporated, leaving ainst hers, I whispered, "We’re broken"

Tess froze "No Don’t say that"

"We are I’ve ruined us Ruined you Ruined everything"