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"I wantI felt was theto mind I wanted the audition over and I knew instinctively that this was the song that would end it It wasn’t just the lyrics, it was the reat it was There was always so This song came from somewhere so deep inside me, it was me The acoustic version was exactly hoanted it to be, and I even kneanted every aspect of it to sound with a band I’d finished writing it only a few nights ago when my existence as one of the invisible had still felt likeanother, one of the songs I hadn’t quite finished But O’Dea wanted to knohat kind of artist I was right now, and this was me Fucked-up, little old me
"This one’s called ‘In the Wind’"
"No, I didn’t understand then
That your soul was part of mine and
When yours faded out
Mine broke down to dust
"Oh, it blew into the wind and
I can’t find all the pieces
That used to bewith eood hand, flinching asfroot to see me like this
There was utter silence in the small apartment
Then O’Dea cleared his throat and I heard the chair protest under his movement "You need rest"
Astonished at his soft words, I re as if to leave
He stared at the floor, seeuitar," I whispered
O’Dea’s dark gaze flew to ave it todawned on his face Everyone knehat happened tothat he could feel eether Sleep, rest Whatever I put soe so all you have to do is heat it up There’s also plenty of water in there Your painkillers are in the cupboard I’ve left you what you need for tonight I’ll bring the rest with me tomorrow"
I scowled "You don’t trust me with painkillers?" At his silence, I huffed "Nurse Goddamned Ratched You knohat, screw your apparent ability to not be a patronizing pain into instinct So let’s just do this" I indicated the seat he’d stood up from "I want this over with"
And before he could reply, I started singing again
"No, I didn’t understand then
That your soul was part of mine and
When yours faded out
Mine broke down to dust"
Me out the , the lyrics, theuntil I forgot where I was and who I ith I wasn’t singing to O’Dea I was singing to her
"Oh, it blew into the wind and
I can’t find all the pieces
That used to be me,
They’re lost in a sea
"So I wander all alone now,
Numb in my remoteness,
Content to be
Lost in this sea
"Just a whisper on a wave,
A lost ship that can’t be saved
And it’s all that I deserve
"Ah, ah, ah
"Oh, I wish that I had told you
All the truths locked inside h our lives
"So afraid that I would fail you