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"It wasalways is"

"Would you stop this pity party?" she snapped, sighing in irritation "Fuck’s sake, Sara, you’re playing the daulped in surprise

"What happened to that boisterous, strong girl I helped raise? The one that opened her otten all soft, darlin’ The years haven’t been kind on your self-esteeot my work cut out forabout that person rong–"

"You were young," she interrupted, looking , and there may have been elements about yourself that you didn’t like, but that didn’t irl S and Jaxon ot in your way That’s the Sara I know You’ve back peddled Whether you admit it or not, you need us I can certainly speak for Jaxon when I say he needs you too We all need each other" She leaned over and wiped a fallen tear on s to you," she said quietly, endearret in her tired face "When Jaxon told ether ether, when I told you to look after yourself in case you got hurt I rong to say those things to you I was just scared because I didn’t realize the depth of Jaxon’s affections, Sara, and I’m so sorry to have done that to you" Her voice broke at the end

I was fully crying now, and so was she "I took it too seriously," I sputtered out "I was already traurew up around My father and my mother and how dependent she was of him, and how he’d up and leave her and she’d be destroyed by it Then you told me about what happened to you, and how Jaxon’s father left you broken hearted, and I got so scared that it would happen to ure had been dependent on men who fucked them over"

"I know, I know, but Sara, Jaxon wasn’t like that, and you knew that, but I filled your head with the wrong thoughts I can’t help but wonder what life would have been like if I’d just shut my mouth"

"The way I was to him, it would have come out eventually with or without your talk None of it was your fault, Lucinda I had a lot of growing up to do"

"I hate that I missed out on five years of this" She wrapped her arht embrace "Whatever happens, you need to know I’ll support you no ry, and he’s different, but I believe the old hi somewhere inside He loves you I know he does"

I didn’t knohether that was true anyood while, and when she droppedlike a load was off s I did to her son, and for blocking her all this ti a piece of happiness restored in me

I made my way up the stairs, to the final dreaded task I walked into what used to be ainst the wall I slowly made my way over and eyed the tape that had secured every box was shut tightly over the flaps Well, can’t open the boxes since I didn’t bring any scissors along Might as well just do it toround beside the stack and stared vacantly ahead Then I pulled outshe was on her way to work She was happy to hear froed every personal question she asked, skilfully steering every topic away so that ere talkingto be open about as happening just yet, and though she was pissy about it, my Lexi wasn’t a pusher… thath one out with every now and then There was no one I wanted to talk to, though

Well, there was Daniel I hesitated over the call button when I pressed his na myself, I clicked it and set the phone tolater "Hey, you I tried calling you last night on ured"

Silence

"What are you up to?" he asked

"At the house The furniture will be gone today, hopefully Then I’ll get the boxes out of the way Then I’ll be done"

"Does thatyou tos I still need to figure out I want to visit rave I want to meet the woman she was close to, and you know I haven’t spent a lot of quality time with Lucinda yet" These were all just excuses, and I had to re you want, babe," he said, soothingly That response caught oing to string you along," I found ive you h on the other end, and it hurt knowing I was causing hi Lucinda’s words I needed to stop the pity party crap

"If you change yourinto the phone "I’ot a place in h lately to fill a lifetime quota of tears spilled, but this tear was inescapable It rolled down ainst the air It felt like I was letting go of soreat all in the hopes of reaching out to soaht choice to , Daniel I’ll keep in touch and let you knohen I’ll be co back to work"