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I wasn’t the irl around, but I looked at ly either I liked what I saw Ugly Sara was a shadohat I’d becoer bones I was healthy and athletic, of average height, with chestnut coloured eyes and very long eyelashes My skin was a light tan, andspeedily at fourteen My breasts had co, but Lucinda advised me that they would befrom your hand if you strut that stuff" She eh I didn’t want to jut mine out at all I promised her I would, but knew I most definitely would not Lucinda’s advice was always a hit or miss

"Make sure you stay away from them bikie kids, by the way," she’d advised with the kind of seriousness that meant no funny business "You don’t want to be involved with that kind of trash"

That was a hit Unless it wasI wanted was to be anywhere near anyone that associated with the Black-Backed Jackals That MC was untouchable

I’d been wracked with nerves on h I had a few friends with me, they weren’t in any of my classes for the first semester The first day was lonely and hard up until lunch ti about Jaxon I can say I loved theand protective of me He invited me to his table, introduced me to his friends, and was attentive tothe world know that I was his best friend, and it made the experience a lot easier on me

I knew many people, but only had a couple friends Every year those friends would be replaced by others for many reasons: sometimes they weren’t in my class, other times they moved away, and sometimes we just meshed into different crowds Ithe them to trust in me I liked when they told me their problems or their stories, it kept the attention off of me

And yes, there were boys I had an aard and shy boy ask me out on a date the first week I was there, like Lucinda had surs Unfortunately, the date was even more aard and unmemorable, and Garrett Abbott was crossed off row a beard or had it in him to shave that lanky hair of his, which were deal breakers at the tirade and good friends with him Jaxon was very uni it aard between him and his friend "You know, he asked me if it was okay to ask you out! Why the hell would I have anything to do with it? Now if you guys go down the shitter, he’ll probably stop hanging out withme that since I elve, when he’d doubled in size and I was physically tiny next to hi, I didn’t mean to intrude on his friendship, but I certainly didn’t think it was that big of a deal In fact, Jordan and I were a solid couple for a year and a half He was my first kiss, my first dance with a boy, and, well, my first ever boyfriend He was cute, tall, and soood at sports and talking to hio, but my interest in him died very shortly after he vacationed with his parents the entire su apart made me realize just howhis I’d harboured for him were not very deep It wasn’t love, and it wasn’t real either It was just… two teenagers who liked each other

Jaxon was very amused by my break up, and wasn’t afraid to show it Actually, to put it more accurately, his reaction was overly joyous than what I would have expected from my supposed best friend But even at the time, I suppressed the tiny suspicion of why that was

I stepped back froot a part time job as a convenience store cashier I never let Lucinda know the store ned by a Jackal, but it was the only place that took avethere, and the Jackal oas hardly ever around, so it worked out well I was technically not associating with that gang Just an e kept me occupied and distractedI was only e, anda whole lot Yet I felt good at every cent I earned knowing it was done the right way, unlike soh school along with the others I’d been friends with It was hard to adjust to not seeing him there – whenever he had been there, anyway In h school, I’d been boirls I didn’t try to fall under soet to know me; I was sure they could care less No, now that Jaxon was not sticking out gloriously a the crowd of students in school, they wanted to know all about his whereabouts, and our friendship – very evident by our inseparability throughout the two years I’d been there – was the gateway for them

I didn’t understand the attraction like therown up thinking of him as my friend and even so far as to say he was like eous, but our friendship was the forefront of my mind I needed that kind of stability; he was irls saas superficial On the outside, he had that bad boy ierous boy who doesn’t care about authority, doesn’t care about school and rules, and people… I wished I could understand that naivety, wished I could finda father who bashed my mom and me around, didn’t have a job, and didn’t care about a da either except for himself, had turned that notion of bad boy into a harsh reality

There was nothing sexy about a real life bad boy, and that was the awful truth chicks didn’t want to accept Girls enjoyed the two dimensional man, and Jaxon was not one of those But would he ever pretend to be for their a silence for a long enough time, then sure, you could take him as someone who lacked depth or care He was tooout more than others: he never let people in