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"I don’t knohat you’re talking about I’ with you--"

"Yes, you are" His voice rises, deep and hard like bullets flying "You’re so busy trying to survive and not get hurt that you’ve built all these walls around you You want to get to your friends, this Sean guybut what happens when you find them? When you’re with them? I bet you can’t be around them, either I bet you don’t let even this Sean touch you--"

"Don’t! Please!" I hate how close to the truth he is He’s right God

I’ve been lying tounco these new carriers I’m uncomfortable anywhere with anyone With everyone I can’t be around people because the girl who could relax and laugh and sing died the moment she took her first life

But then I realize that’s not entirely true Because Cadenaround him actually makes me happy As much as I don’t want to adh I didn’t beg him to stop "So you reunite with them, then what? You think you’ll be okay? Will you relax then and be able to forget that you’re a carrier? Will that giant chip on your shoulder disappear?" He’s squared me in, his arms on either side offroirl will fix what’s broken in you?"

Words form on my lips I choke on them and try to shove past hi thing of all More hu he knows I’m broken and scared Now he knoeak I am, too

He doesn’t let me move an inch past him He stands before me like an unbreakable wall I knot ainst his chest

"Davy" His voice co tone of before

"No! No!" I slap his chest at each word "I don’t care what you say I a to be okay I’ll findI’ll be asp as this confession flies from my mouth Even he looks stunned

Then he does the unthinkable He laughs "You think you can go back to before? That you can be normal?"

God, did I just say that? Did I really think noruess I did I do I think it’s out there still, waiting foraway froe I’d built it up in ain, and it had to be