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posted by: iambanksky at 8:55 press takes note? Poor Maddie And poor Sarah! I can’t iine how devastated she must be

posted by: mamabear27 at 12:00 am

Sarah Snow is a liar

posted by: anonymous at 1:03 a lot without seeing the reporter again, thank God Still no texts from Parker, and no word fronize

Yo WTF Tried calling R u dead?

I delete the text without replying Probably some asshole I made out with once

My whole body feels fil, half wobble across the street to the gas station I buy a Coke and chug it in basically a single gulp, then lock ly clean and as cold as aI towel off with the scratchy brown paper towel unique to public restrooms, the kind that s in the mirror--funny how I used to like to look at myself, could stand for hours with Ariana atlip and eye shades and ht shoulder, which helps conceal the scars belowI can do about the scars on h I half wish I had Nick’s hoodie again

Already I feel better Still, I spend soh the rack of weird as stations sell: Christian rock CDs, sun visors, plastic razors When Parker first got his license, six ame where we’d all pile into the car and hit up the local pawn shops and gas stations, co over who could find the weirdest ite toys, fur clotted with dust, stuffed behind a row of condoot the horse because she used to ride, and I got the bear, which I named Brownie

I wonder whether he remembers that day

I wonder what he would think if he knew that Brownie still sleeps withlot across the street is now mostly empty, and both the cops and the news vans have dispersed The sun is hovering low over the trees, and I can see stretches of the bay lying puddle-like between the clutter of businesses and condos

When I step outside, I’led behind a big SUV, sarette with hard, rapid pulls She starts when she sees arette Then, after a s her hand to hera phanto "Don’t I know you?"

Whatever I thought she ht say, it wasn’t that I shakebut actually devouring h it’s a long shot, I say, "Maybe you know"Yeah,her hands on the back of her jeans The seconds tick on I wonder what it would be like to have to be here, on the beach, surrounded by strangers, holding hands with so for your sister to co of suffocation I was never good at this: words of comfort or hope "I’m really sorry About your sister I’m sureI’m sure she’s okay"

"You think?" When she turns back to rief and fear and soer--I alrabsso hard I can feel the i so hard to protect her," she says, speaking in a sudden rush "It’s all my fault" She’s so close I can s is the hardest part, isn’t it?"

"Sarah" Across the street, Kennedy is standing at the edge of the parking lot, holding a hand to her eyes to shield theain, Sarah’s face transfor around, her blond hair fanning behind her shoulder blades, trailing the faint smell of smoke

FEBRUARY 9

Nick’s Gratitude List

Why is it so hard to find five things to be thankful for? It’s only been a ht be the hardest New Year’s resolution I ever made, especially after our crap show of a Christs I’ toher journal Or the fact that Moirlfriend always has lipstick on her teeth, even first thing in the oes For real this tirateful that I don’t have lipstick on rateful for the Toyota Dad got me! Okay, it’s like twenty years old and Parker says the upholstery smells like cat food, but it drives, and this way Dara and I don’t always have to fight over the keys

3 I’ ball of fluffy

4 I’ot Lesalle started that stupid ru in the boiler rooot She always goes for the most obvious rumors