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I want to stay

But it’ll kill me not to pursue er than I should, prolonging the time in his arms

When I’ le when he reciprocates, loving the way his aro

"I love you," I whisper in his ear and steal aithout looking back

And every step away fro for s

His assistant has returned froer she is to apply for a permanent position at Carma, now that her internship is over Like her, I’m officially done with my summer internship When the clock strikes 6 pm, I have my stuff in boxes

And when I head upstairs at six and Callan opens his office door and leans on it, si so deep, I alarette with hiarette with him Fuck the seven minutes of life it takes from me, life is that terrace and him and me

He seems to read my mind, because he shuts the door behind hio upstairs, we’re silent for a while Not even s there in silence--and for a while, it’s enough Breathing close to hi looks and soaking up the sensuality of his physique I’m so attuned to him, I’m painfully aware of every breath he takes, of how deeply he inhales, exhales, hoarm his body temp is, where his eyes are focused

And they are on me

He studies aze to his ain I want to feel it all over ry ti to do it

How I can say goodbye

I think of Texas andto , but it won’t be as exciting doing it alone I then decide I’ll take a job until I’o it alone, and someday I will ask o, and I will look Callan up and hopefully I won’t feel this squeezing in ht, I’ll be ready to s I do andwell, wants to be together Officially

I tell myself all this, and yetaimlessly in the wind because I’ hts up and handsat my mouth with acute intensity as I take a hit

"We should stop s