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I smiled pleasantly "Ball’s in your court You want platonic, I can do that"

"I think that would be for the best"

I tried to keep my expression neutral "Okay I think it’s pretty obvious; I’ll take what I can get"

"Want to hear hed I kneouldn’t like whatever she had come up with, but I humored her, "Yeah, shoot"

"I think it’s soical, physical drive that kicks in e’re near each other, because we never got real closure, so our bodies want to cling to each other, because we’re worried we’ll never get the chance again You can’t cut someone out of your life like that and not have closure We need closure"

I wanted to quote my therapist to her He always said closure was a myth, or at least what people had turned it into was, but I stayed silent, because I wanted her to cling to this theory of hers

This theory washer tune after all these years

I ht it was complete bullshit, but I was in no position to dispute it If I could have said what I wanted and not scare her off, I would have pointed out that it’d always been like that between us, there had always been the drive to touch, to feel each other in every way one human could touch another, inside, outside, body, soul

But I couldn’t say what I wanted to say Not yet

Step one: Get back into her life again

Everything else was secondary The rest would coround rules, like only go out with a third wheel, some type of chaperone"

My smile felt like it wanted to crack my face I really, really didn’t like that idea "Whatever you think is best"

She sighed, as though conflicted about it "We’re two mature adults We shouldn’t have to resort to a babysitter"

Here, here

"We’ll keep our hands to ourselves It’s just that si her h to think I’d get to fk her again anytiet her to let me eat her puy She became very receptive after I went down on her for a few minutes, I recalled

I had a brief and intense fantasy where I buried s and made her lose it I wanted to taste her, even if it was only for a moment I needed to know if I reht I did How long did a tongue’s memory last? I badly wanted to find out